last dae of school.sad.yet happy
todae is the last dae of school
was cleaning classroom
and playing bball all dae
bwhabhahbwa.
interesting
apparently MOE head quarts
someting wrong..
so can't rcv results slips..
so ..PARTY!!! bwhahbwa..
we went to new water arhz
quite interesting..
esp OUR trip there was most FUNNy.
bwhabhwahbwa..
we were singing all sorts of HUMOUROUS songs like ..
spongebob..
and BAO JING TIAN..
bwhahbwa..
NEWater was fun arhz...
not as boring as i thot it would be..
took some picx arhz.
then went to heartland with Limin vannie rah ..
actually saw vannie
then ask her to pop along
bwhahbwhabwa..vannie is a funny chap..
we ate at BK
and we WERE LUFFING like crazy bananas..
i swear..
bwhabhwahbwa..
interesting..
im so going to miss all those pple..
esp my best fren...
hey pple..
all the best alrite
you can do it!!
=]love ya..

thur
i made something for my best fren...haix..
cried upon reading her letter
really devasted...
sigh..
anyway..
that dae do the math thing
until crazzy liaox
after that
took cab
went to MARCHE with gen yum and rah..bwhahbwa.
we ate the pizza and drank soup!
bwhabhwahbwa..then we were playing bluff
and got scolded...
bloody crazy..
took the ah neos..
bwhahbwhabwa..
That one was WEIRD lorz..
the sound was scary yet funny
thus the FUNNY actions in the neo print

bhwahbwha..
it was also rainging arhz...
so yup yup!
bwahbhwa
gen was desperately trying to cover us
bwhahbwahbwa
NO use manz
but appreciated the THOT!
thnks gen
anyway..
then we got on the MRT
and was the only wet ones
bwhabhwahbwa..
madness arhz...
yup..

happiest.vs.saddest

ok
apparently U just came online?
wadz up with that man
not the main point
anyway..
todae the WHOLE dae wasn't in class
was playing basketball dwnstairs.
shoot some hoops
and relieve some goops..
really sad now a daes..
anyway...
was playing and doing layouts
mr kim came and taught
me lenna gen..
boy is he naggy or naggy
bwhabwahbwa...
BIG thing todae: i actually manage to do a 3pointer.
MIRCALE.
took a bus with gen n sarah
went to meet xueying and mae shann
ate mos
yak til the break of dawn
and walked to hereen.
alfter that me and xue
went for BC.
happy thing
after bc
1.i bought black nail polish
2. I SAW THIS GUITAR
ELECTRIC GUITAR..
THAT IS THE EXACT SAME ONE I WANTED TO BUY AT YAMAHA
at yamaha it cost about..
400 plus
THERE!!!! IT ONLY COST 139bucks!!!
-faint- I NEARLY CRIED AT THE CASH CONVERTERS CAN!??!?!
OH MY BOBO NANAS!!!
it was a intense moment for me!!!
i nearly cried in front of that place
and SHOUT
THNK YOU LORD!!!
serious lorz!
i was BOUNCING UP AND DWN LIKE CRAZY!!!
ok then i went home
and came home to blog
this happy news..
now for the sad...

solo.dedication to my best fren
im so going to miss my BEST fren
i love that babe to bits and nanas..
i want to spend my year with her!
haix..she is my best fren man..
spend alot of time with that gurl
do so many activites together.
lame and crap with her..
spend my 4years in PLMGS with her..
gurl, you will always be in my heart...
remaining there..
no one can EVER change the fact that you are my best fren.
you are my best fren.
forever and ever. no one can ever change that
SPECIAL fact..
i still can remember those daes in which we will party
i can remember the dae when miss ferng made us sit together..
that was the dae that our friendship grew into something so strong
as metal..gurl..
im really gpoing to miss you!!!
sigh..
can't believe it lorz..
really..
how can i go thru sec4 when you are not there?
you are my support thru the toughest times
you were there when i was really ON depression mode
you were the one to make me smile
now that you are gone...
wad am i going to do!?!?
best fren...
all the memories will be in my mind...
every little detail
will always be on my mind...
i wrote a thing for you..
here it goes...

memories forever
i never thought that this was true..
i never think that life could be cruel..
all the memories
all the times we shared.
memories forever.
will be stuck in my head.

dun say i'll forget you
cos i noe it ain't true..
cos you are my best fren..
this doesn't mean goodbye..
it's just a begining
don't you cry...
one thing i know for sure..
life is never gonna be the same without you
we gotta be strong
gotta hold on...
to these memories
and special stories...

now i just wanna say
i treasure you
i'll never forget you..
cos you're my best fren..
and that's a fact.

memories will stay in my mind..
cos you are someone so special
that i can never find
i wanna say im sorry that i hurt you
i wanna say im glad that i met you...
all the times that we've gone thru
it's is something really true..

i won't say goodbye
cos in our friendship
i'll never admit that our friendship will die.
IT will never happen
and i wun let it happen...
so friend..
be strong
and carry on....
love ya babe...
keep holding on...
twothr3e loves you always

best fren...i love ya!!you're my darling and shining star

serious boredom.wanna pon school.save me

seriously.
school is such an utter waste of HUMAN's time.
SO BORING i swear i can die on the spot and let you see.
the PSL are trying hard to entertain us...
gosh..
EVEN OUR DM[ discipline mistress ] had to entertain us
by giving us FREQUENT scoldings..
goshz.
bored to death.
after school went to J8
never been tehre for quite some time.
bwhabhwahbwa.
hasn't CHANGE much
anyway.
went to eat
really felt like a farking pig.
im fat liaox
anyway.
i have decided to cut my hair.
CUT it
CUT IT
CHOP CHOP..bwhabhwhabwa
in december.
bwhabhwhabwa.
so sorry vonne and venessa..
can't help you guys..
SORRY!!! ah..
gulity...
my mother fetched me home
bwhahbwahbwa...
very very very tired..
got a slight headache.
YAWNZ.
wanna sleep..
take care one and all.

i want a job.i wan to cut hair. i wanna die. i wanna sleep. YAWN. glad it's OVER.

overall.depressed.worried.scared.

oh no.
im so freaking scared.
scared for my best fren tanya..
gosh..
gurl..im so gonna miss you
i have faith
that mircales will happen
you are in my prayers all the time babe.
gosh...this has been a shock to me...
todae is boring dae.
had fun with tanya gen rah nurul yum con
venessa vonne tiffany..
sitting there
betraying my own house.
scrreaaamming go LEE go...bwhwahbwhabwa
alrite.
LEE house did win.
dodsworth? ..
wad about it?
bwhabhwahbwa...
anyway.
i lost my job
bwhabhwahbwa...
yup.
i have no job now. HOW?? bwhabhwahbwa..faint...
anyway...
to my best fren tanya:
babe..im gonna be here for u
AT ANY Time..
i'll be here!!!
gosh...!!!
i feel so saddened..
too sad to even cry....
haix...
babe...!!!
pray..and believe...
love ya so much!!!

LIFE IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR....AND I LOST MY JOB OFFER.WOOPHIE..bwhabhwahbwa

bored to death.getting really fat

okok.
these few daes have been really boring
and let's not forget.
fattening
bwahbhwa.have been EATINg like no one's business.
if i come back to school,
i dun think anyone will recognize me.
bwhabhwahbwa.
anyway
yo ho ho pple.
this is madness...
emmm..
oh yes pple..
i re=arranged my room
wooophie...
how thrilling...
ok ignore my lame moments.
im really bored to the nanas.
B-O-R-E-D.
sigh..i see my batch doing o levels..
i'm getting scared too..
hia.x...feeling kinda depressed too..
i could hav been doing o levels and
getting out of FREAKY Fucking plmgss...
why....why why why...
friendster is getting scarier...
found so many pple!
goshz.
anyway.
take care pple

to those taking o levels:
hey pple! all the best alrite?
God is in the house
there is no doubt!!!
bwahbhwahbwa..
pray and like my role model always say
"dont pley pley arhz...and RELAC arhz"
bwhabhwahbwa..dun worry..
i have faith in u guys and
GOd loves you all!!!
smile!

getting depressed all over again.depression lapser.cos of u

dooms-dae.wasn't that bad.

well.todae is dooms dae.
when i get my results.
die arhz.
1st paper was ...
emm..chinese...
alrite arhz chinese
after chinese was lit geog then ss maths science art english.
i passed everything arhz.
not that bad
FINALLY PASS ENGLISH!!!
praise the LORD!!!!
but quite disappointed with
my geog and my social studies.
yup yup.
emmm...
thot i could do better if given more time.
anyway.
at this time.
i really wanna thank God for his grace and mercy
upon me.
cos without his strength and guide
i would have die on this battlefield.
dear Lord..
i wanna thank you for so many tings.
i really have nothing to offer up to you Lord
cos everything belongs to you.
and everything is for your Glory.
Lord i pray that you will give peace in every9one's hearts at this time
that you will guide and lead us on into the next
phrase in life.
Lord you have a plan for each and everyone of us.
Lordi pray that everyone will just trust and commit their lives
and results to you
cos you noe the greatest plan for us.
Lord thnk you so much for your ever grace
and love. thnk you for this plan.
thnk you
THNK YOU!!!!!
AMEN.
God..thnk you so much...i have nothing to say. but A BIG THANK YOU...!!

those pple who are feeling dejected.
hey, i noe how you feel.
i have been thru the phrase of life
in which i thot i wil just die.
it was tough
and i noe that all of you can rough it out.
given this second chance may be something you mite regret
but, at least the chance is given you prove
those Farking teachers wrong.
God has a plan
and he will make a way
for each and everyone one of us.
have faith
cos God loves you
and me too!
smile.

wed
oh yes
this is the dae when i meet mae shann
and xueying for lunch
at the crepes place.
mae shann and us tok for quite some time.
she is a really good and cool CGL.
i was actually quite scared upon this meeting.
dun ask me why.bwhahbwahbwa.
anyway.we had quite alot of fun arhz.
then after that we went to buy a book.
den went for bc.
Bc is getting fun arhz
FINALLy.
i think i caused xueying to get scolding frm her mum.
cos i was buying things?
die larhz
guilty.
sorry xueying!
that's about it lorz.yup
then played with henna?
yup.fun..!!!bwhabhwahbwa
that's about it.

sentosa.with tanya and pals

todae i went to sentosa with tanya
and pals!!! like emm..
val immelia and alicia...!!
bwhabhwahbwa..funny pple..
anyway.i was early arhz.
then we took to harbour front.
and alicia was late
so the pple went to buy mac 1st.
then after that alicia came.
or rather we met her?
then after that we went to sentosa!
oh yes
canoe
and swim
and tan.
bwhabhwahbwa
alicia was having fun
she is one hell of a nutty kid..
bwhabhwabwa
all red and tired.
not relaly red.
just tired.
bwahbhwahbwa
=] it was fun todae.
i went home while the other peeps went to town.
bwahbhwahbwa interesting.
yupx.
it was fun...

counting dwn to thurs.
dooms dae.
die larhz...
im so scared..
scared to my nanas!!
how howhow??
NVM!
GOD WILL PROTECT US!!!
AMEN!!!!!

gosh.lfe is so tiring now.sigh.if you only knew my sufferingsbwhahbwa.TIRED

ITS AFTER EXAMS NANAS!!LETS PARTY WITH OUR TOES!!

i tell you.
todae is the day we
BOOGIE!!!
exams r over.
and it is time..
okok.
we had MCQ todae.
quite tough if you ask me.
enver mind.
we had the AFTER EXAMS CRISIS.
dunno wads up with the world.
no one wanted to go out??
but WE
the ADVENTUROUS pple
[vonne rah yum venessa and me]
went to watch INFERNAL AFFAIRS.
=please.pple.i wanna say something.=
SHAWN YUE's EYES ARE BOOTIFUL.
EDISON's SMILE IS LOVELY.
THE BLACK COLOUR KNOWLEDGE[ hei se hui -traids-]
ARE THE COOLEST IN HONG KONG.
i think gangsters in singapore should wear TUX
bwhabhwhabwa.
that would be madness.
singapore's weather is HOT.
better not.
we;ll have sweaty gangsters.
not a pleasant sight.
anyway. after that
we continued our adventure to HEEREN
and took some AH NEO
and ate crepes.
bwahbhwahbwa
it was FUNNY.
anyway
we head on the SUNTEC for more fun.
we went to CAFE CARTEL
-special reason cannot say online.-
dun worry, there aren't any cute guys there.
trust me
emmm..yes yes..
then we went around LOOKING FOR JOBS.
bwhabhwa
i think i malu myself so many times todae.
by asking every single shop in suntec
if they needed recruits.
bwahbwhabhwa
hack arhz.
MUST DARE to ask marhz.
=] my mother says she will tok to my dad abt it.
prays hard.cos i relaly need the cash
to buy my dream...bwahbhwahbwa
anyway then.
after much walking
we sat dwn.
and we look upon
MARCHE.
we got tempted.
and ran in.
bwhabhwahbwa
THE FOOD IS BBEEEEEEAAAAAUUUUTTTIIIFFFUUULLLLL.....
the pizza was GREAT.
tHE MUSHROOM SOUP IS..
MA MA MI YA..
GOSH LORZ!!! but the things there are
SUPER EX CAN!?!?!?!
bwhabhwahbwahbwa.
after that..
we decided for us to end our adventure.
on the way back
i saw mae shann..
bwhabhwahbwa
spoke to her for a lil while
and xueying and i would be meeting her on wed?
for lunch..
why? i ddunnooo...?!?!?!??!
oh never mind.
-yim char-[drink tea in cantonese]
then we head home.
and now im at home.
tml i'll be going sentosa with tanya.
emmmm...
hope everything would turn out find.
bwhabhwahbwahbhwa
=] yup.life is great i guess!
THNK GOD FOR HELPING
AND GUIDING ME THRU THIS STRESSFUL PERIOD.
IF IT WERENT FOR GOD.
I WOULD HAVE DIED OF STRESS.
AND DEPRESSION.
THNK YOU LORD
life is just plain crazy now...and i can't take it...if i lapse into depression again.that's it.

sundae
oh yes.
sunday xueying and cor showed my awful
shirt designs to some pple of antioch
and they embarrassed me once again
with this
Look alike thing.
BLUR? ask the corny pple [ cor, xue and fel]
these pple have been making fun of me manz.
wad is wrong with dem?
bwhabhwahbwa.
DUN EVEN LOOK LIKE CAN!?!??!
-cries-
bwhabhwahbwa.
nvm.
sunday was ok larhz i guess...
was kinda happy though.
if i say i wasn't happy.
i would be lying.
he he he...

slacking.bwhabhwa.MCQ?wad is that

bwhabhwabwa.
have been slacking the whole dae.
seriously dun give a damn bout the MCQ
but i was doing biology MCQ.
at least.
bwhabhwhabwa
now waiting for dinner.
i feel fat.
and like a pig.
eat and sleep.
WHO CARES!
tonite.
LOVING YOU
IS ON TONITE.
TONITE IS THE NITE.
CHANNEL U
11pm.
WATCH IT
gosh!!
bwhabhwabwha
i have decided pple.
i have no more CONFUSION about hair
i decided
TO CUT like LI-MIN frm loving u
AFTER dec!
bwhabhwhabwa
=]
so ppl.e
slack along with ah yue
FOR ah yue is bored.
and really bored.
have resorted to watching SHOWs i dun watch
like
kids central XMEN.
die.
alrite.
gotta chaox!tc one and all!
life is bootiful
and EXAMS ARE ENDING!

kill geog MCQ for goodness sake.it sUCKS

i tell you.
ok art was fine
MINE looked really shitty.
fark.who cares larhz.
it ALWAYS look shitty...
anyway.i wanna THANK GOD
that THERE WAS ENOUGH BLACK PAINT.
cos i BROUGHT the wrong TUBE
and it was the tube without much BLACK
THANK GOD!PRAISE HIM !!!
alrite.
then i was panicking for GEOG>
damn it.
IT WAS HARD
anyway..i really dunno how to do quite a few.
anyway.
MJC plan failed
the fellow pasir ris eans needed to sleep.
bwhahbwahbwhabwah i understand
SO i went bowling with kathleen,vonne,jasmine,mich and LIMIN[striker]
bwahbwhahbwa.WE had a lot of CRAZY fun
1stly, we looked as if we didn't eat for YEARS.
2ndly, THERE WAS NO MUSIC which makes me really pissed.
bwhabhwahbwa.so i used my money to PLAY MUSIC.
gosh.
bwhabhwhabwa.
3rdly, LIMIN is really good
and 4thly,WE HAD LOTS OF FUN!!!
but at 3pm...
we realised we had nothing to do liaox
bwhabhwahbwa.
so walked around in heartland
and then we went home.
bwhabhwahbwa.took 53..
pass by MJC.
boy did i really wanna get dwn and go in
bwhabhwahbwa
but i didn't larhz.
so malu.bwhabhwahbwa
yup.
that is about all

i need a job manz.
i need to pay for my:
guitar
hp bill
-new goal- BOWLING BALL for fun.bwhahbwahbwa
courses to take for furhter guitar things.
100 guitar picks
gosh that's alot.

now i really commit my results
unto GOD"s hands..
cos i really dunno wad the outcome would be
it's all up to him now.
i guess evreyone has tried and
im sure you would wan the best for you paper.
TRUST me.
as long as you ask, you shall recieve.
GOD is gracious!!!
alrite?dun worry pple!

i think we should have a movie marathon

major papers are over.ITS TIME TO PARTY! and NT panic over the results!

bwhabhwahbwhabhwabwa.
i tell you
IM SO HAPPY THAT CHEM AND CHINESE ARE OVER!!!
though i think it wasn't REALLY DONE THAT WELL.
bUT GOD HELPED ME ALONG THE WAY
ABIT HERE AND THERE.HE HELP ME CONTROL
THIS STOMACH OF MINE FROM NOT SHIITING IN CLASS.
dunno wad is wrong this stomach
anyway.
i needed to shit HALF way during the exams
aannddd quekers NEARLY didn't allow me to go.
i swwearrr i cld have SLAPPED her na off.
chinese was alrite larhz.
quite tough COS of the compre.
anyway
me gen and rah were at the canteen
TOKING ABOUT DETAILS OF OUR HOME-LY LIVES.
bwahbhwahbwahbhwa =]
went home with the PASIR RIS-EANS.
nurul sarah and me
had a SUPER BIG FEAST i tel you
bwhabhwahbwa
soon EVERY 53 uncle and auntie will RECONGIZE us
bwhabhwahbhwahbwa!!!!
anyway life is alrite liaox
HAB to get ready for ART.
and geog.
=]so...
let's CHILL and enjoy our lives
AND COMMIT OUR RESULTS UNTO
tHE LORD!
oh yes pple.
i have a problem

SHOULD I CUT MY HAIR IN DEC.
cos i have SURVEYED
AND IT IS A TIE!!!!!!
SO HOW!!!!!!
COMMENTS PLEASE
ASAP.
IF THOSE WHO HAVEN"T SEE ME WITH MY SHORTER HAIR.
i'll show u.

I LOVE FRIENDSTER.COS sARAH FOUND EDISON AND SHAWN YUE

gosh lorz
FRIENDSTER U ROCK TO DEATH
but everyone
it's closing soon
LET's JOIN
www.myspace.com
IT IS EXACTLY like fRiendster!
so hURRY!!! JOIN NOW!
AND ADD ME!!!
alrite?
rite.
so todae was english paper.
panic till my na wanna drop liaox
anyway it was ok lorz
quite fine.
didn't sleep for the 1st time
and didn't finish in 30min for the 1st time.
must concentrate and PASS IT!!!
IN JESUS NAME I'll DO IT I TELL YOU
GOD WAS THERE FOR ME
AND IM SURE HE HAS A PLAN FOR ME!!!
SO i HAVE FAITH!!1
alrite.
then
I TELL YOU
YESTERDAE SARAH TOLD ME
SHE FOUND EDISON's FRIENDSTER
I NEARLY CRIED manz.
GOSH!
faint
and shawn YUE added me rah gen vonne and VAL!!
GOSH! i swear we SCREAM the classroom dwn.
but we've been thinking if
IT IS THE REAL SHAWN YUE?
YUE!!! AHH YUE!
BWAHBWHAHBWAHBWHABWHA!!!!
faint faint
alrite todae is slog for
CHINESE AND cHEM
and layout for ART!
later still got BC.
of all daes to have BC!
why didn't i have BC YESTERDAE!?!?!??!
cries
anyway see ya!!
having fun in FRIENDSTER!!!

tanya:
dun be sad
SMILE!!!
im here for you
no matter wad
i can lend you my ORANG UTAN ears
that's for SURE.
love ya gurl.
dun be nuts...=]=]=]
AND NO FUNNY THOTS!
and no LIONS!
alritE? Love ya lots

anti founders dae.slacking.LOVING YOU MODE

i tell you
WDA IS WRONG WITH OUR SCHOOL
having founders dae on
A WEEK THAT IS
SMACK RITE IN THE MID OF EXAMS
GO AWAY LARHZ.
wah laoz
waste my time.
GOSH.
lucky it was a SNAP FAST TIME.
gosh.
anyway life is alrite now
SLACKING
aNd finding loving you picx
COS THE SHOW IS SIMPLY GREAT???
and i wanna cut LI-MIN [the guy in the show]
the hair style.
ITS LONG.dUN WORRY
it's nice too!
yup.
so you guys chao
and take care
dun slack like wad im doing now
ALRITE?
TAKE CARE

sings the loving you song in the head

todae.is.murder.dae.cos.it's math.and im slacking

alrite pple.
this is bad.
i'lve been slacking since
1pm.
and now it's going to be 4.
im dead
wad about chinese chem and art.
so jillian,
you think you realy smart arhz?
NO NEED TO STUUDDY??
fine.
alrite
math was a killer.
DIE already.
i can forget about passing.
BUT I WANNA THANK GOD
tHAT HE TAUGHT ME HOW TO DO
THAT QUESTION
It was already 10.50 liaox
and he GAVEme the inspiration to do it
THNK YOU LORD!
anyway i went home with
the Pasir ris-eans.
bwhabhwabwa
yup and sarah and me bought lunch
yup
came home
went for a neighbour hood jog
and came back.
and slack.
going to slack somemore.
can't believe im watching
a FUNNY SQUIRELL now.
gosh.
thnks to sarah
IM ADDICTED to this crappo!bwhabhwa
IT IS SOOO FUNNY
anway.
take care.

QING TIAN ROCKS...gua feng zhe tian, wo shi guo wo ze ni sou

come to me and I'll PREDICT Your PERSONALITY..
Choose, from a list of cakes below, which one you would have for morning tea.
Cream sponge
Brownie
Lemon tart
Chocolate éclair
Strawberry shortcake
Chocolate mud cake
Ice-cream cake
Carrot cake

bwahbwhabhwa.QING TIAN

slack.along.with.jillian.

hellox.
im slacking like mad.
totally mad.
but anyway
yesterdae i watch LOVING YOU
gosh.lorz.
my dad SUSPECT that li he mite be going to jail
HOW?!?!?!?!? OH NO!!!
duoli and him..
will it be the end??
anyway i was busy luffing at the way
xiuqing said i LOVE YOU in korean.
she sounds totally drunk and mad.
bwhabhwahbwa
anyway todae i went to church
bwhabwhahbwa
BOUNCING along to the song
[this is how we overcome]
bwhabhwa.
i wanna thank God for letting me
overcome so many things in life.
like my EXAMs.
i couldn't have done without him.
he is so great to me!
thnk u LORD!! YOU ROCK MY WORLD!!!
-sense earthquake-
then went for cell group.
we went mad i tell u.
bwhabhwahbwa
anyway went to TM with cor to get her
EAR-rings and coollouurrreed pens.
bwahbhwa.mad gurl.
came home
did math paper
and
was listening to JAY CHOU
qing tian.
the lyrics damn nice.
[translate:last time, got someone love you
for a really long time..
but then the wind blow
the a great distance between us..etc]
now currently
SLACKING ONLINE.
so yup.
u guys CHILL
and GOD BLESS YOU EVERYONE!!!!!
HE LOVES YOU!!!!=]

i was VAGUE-ly observing.
and i think you are depressed.
cheer up chap!

biology.it was easy.but i think im going to fail

alrite.
i really scared for my biology.
ok i must pray..
God will bless me and my class
no problem one peeps!
we can do it
EH?
alrite.
later must slog.
cos im really slagging
todl myself to get off the net
at 4..
amd here im ..
STILLL hERE at 4.19..
-kills self-
alrite.
i better STUDY
and pray..
i'll be praying for you guys
God has been with me thru
these daes of suffering..
LORD i wanna thnk u
for sticking beside me
thru all this TOUGH and furious
times..
love ya LORD!

i hate exams.but with God by my side.everything is going to turn out fine

alirte.
exams totally screwed.
geog was a killer
lit was a murder.
im totally dead.
but God was there to help me
here and there.
when i didn't have the time to complete
he helped me place all the points together.
and lump the whole shit together.
THANK YOU GOD!
anyway my frenz
dun be stressed alrite?
everything is gonna turn out fine.
cos God makes mircales
and HE has a special plan for each and every one of us.
ok.doing art.
so chill alritE?
take care.
love u guys!
GOD BLESS U THRU THIS
HORRIBLE TIME.LOVE YA PEEPS.
ROCK ON!

learn frm me.im the BEST SLACKER

stressed slacker on the loose

see the irony of life.
im stress.
but im SLACKING LIKE CRAZY
LOOKING FOR NEW LAYOUTS SOMEMORE!!
-slaps jilian into 3/4-
PLEAE LARH JILLIAN!! WAKE UP!!!
alrite.
todae was ok
i REALIZED I BROUGHT THURS TIME TABLE.
WAD THE FARK IS WRONG WITH ME.
but i live the dae with it.
anyway then no PE!!!
-i forgot to bring PE shirt-
HAD ALOT OF LOONEY fun todae
i was MAD I tell u.
tanya was chasing me during recess all over the school
ESP the canteen.
bwhabhwahbwa
-malu-
went to hide!
tok to anastasia..
silly gurl
stay strong alrite
anyway..
TAY BEE KEE SUCKS LARHZ.
i NEED TO STUDY GEOG or i'll just faint and die can?
fark.
life is shitty
realized my mother check all my MSGs in the inbox
bwhabha
NOTHING TO HIDE SO NOT SCARED!! bwhabhwa
so CHILL EVERYONE!!!

GOD HELP ME THRU THIS LOONEY CRISIS.
LORD IM PUTTING ON WEIGHT LIKE ANYTING
LORD HELP ME IN EVERYTHING THAT I DO.I NEED U IN MY LIFE
LORD IM WILLING TO LAY DWN AND COMMIT TO U MY STUDIES.
LORD SAVE ME!!!

stress.God save me frm this misery of stupid exams

im really stressed out.
im lacking hair to pull out liaox
bwhabhwahbhwa
just kidding..later u see me all bald by the end of the year
u noe why
anyway yes yes.damn stress
yesterdae my uncle thot me chem
on metals and wad not.
boy was it tough.
REALIZE IT IS IMPT TO NOE THE REACTIVITY SERIES
gosh.never knew it was that impt.
anyway yes yes.
todae i went to church.
waited for xueying.
again.
bwhabhwahbwa.alrite alrite.
shan't be mean.
anyway we saw the usual pple we see.
EVERY COMMUNION.madness.
me and xueying wil just luff can?
bwhabwhaba
anyway then yes yes...=]=]=]
nothing much lorz in church..
then came back.
later going to CRASH AND BURN ON MY BOOKS.
burn the geog and lit away.todae is bio and chem
DIE DIE DIE.no! it's bio maths.
DIE.STILL DIE.
never mind.
WITH GOD's STRENGTH.
I CAN DO ANYTHING.
ANNNNYYYTTTHHHIIINNNGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes yes.
on sat,
we had CHINESE PAPER1.
die larhz.confirm die.
ANYHOW WRITE cAN?rubbish.
then tanya con yum limin sarah gen PLAn on going BK.
but it was full,
so we ran to MACs
bwahbhwahbwa.
mad pple.
then had tuition
slog...
then watch
LOVIN U
EVERYONE.PLEASE GO AND WATCH
ALTHOGH ONLY LEFT 2 mORE EPISODES
IT IS THE COOLEST I TELL U
ESP NOW.
WATCH.CHANNEL U 11pm.
DAMN NICE!!!!!!! GOSH!!!
CURSE U XIUQING...
anyway
You guys reading this lump of shit.
aLL THE BEST FOR UR UP COMING EXAMS.
PRAY AND GOD WILL BLESS YOU NO MATTER WAD.
IF YOU ARE FEELING DWN AND DEPRESSEd.
LOOK UP TO GOD,COS HE IS THERE FOR YOU...
WATCHING U!!!
so CHILL PPLE.dun follow my habit of plucking hair.
bwahbhwahbwa
-peace ho-

to my darling gen
gen ...stay strong at this point of time..
God loves u and u dun have to feel the way u do..
EVERYONE loves u..
stay strong...i'm here for u too alrite?
so is sarah!!! we love u gen!!1 dun have to fear
old crapz!bwahbwhabwa...WE ARE HERE WHEN U NEED US alrite?
dun be afraid to tell us anything.COS WE ARE FRENZ!! GOOD FRENZ!!!
alrite?i'll be praying for u!
love jillian

english paper1.farking stress

anyway.
todae is english papaer.one.
it was pretty alrite
but i think i OVER write??
later the examiner anyhow hoW??
God grant my paper
favor in the examiner's eyes.
u noe how impt english is to me Lord.
u noe how scared im.
Lord, i entrust everything to ur hands Lord.
after that had a few lessons.
the funny thing todae was
gen told sarah to clip her hair.
then she say
' USE SAFETY PIN LA!'
but it suppose to be HAIR PIN
bwahbhwahbwa
rubbish larhz gen
art..we went to play basketball instead
MADNESS.
SO SORRY SARAH!!! MAKE HER WAIT
sorry!!!
we went to kfc..
i felt so POOR AND NEEDY?!!?!
gop-ing everyone's food.
anyway.then me and sarah went home.
bwhabhwahbwa.
then whne i got dwn,
i wave at sarah, who is sitting upstairs
then the gurl beside me thot i siao already
cos i waving to the sky and smiling.
bwhabwhahbwahbwa.
HACK larhz.
then played piano like crazy
bwahbhwabwa.
was trying to figure out the song.
not bad larhz
got the notes.
but need the speed that's all.
holland VILLAGE so poor thing
XIAO HUI DIED!!GOSH!!
love and it's wonderful power
gosh lorz.
i think i'll never do that for my other half.
bwhabhwa
-EVIL-
cos most likely i'll just stand there in shock.
anyway.
tml chinese.
STRESS.
ah lerms camme to help me
sweet OLD ah lerms.
anyway ALL THE BEST PPLE!!!

GOD BLESS OUR PAPERS.
GRANT THEM FAVOR IN THE EYES OF THE EXAMINER
THAT THERE WILL BE NO BIASED THOUGHTS
AND EVERYTHING WILL GO WELL FOR THE RETAINEES
AND THE REST
AMEN

my arse hurts

bwhabhwa.
my arse hurts
gosh anyway
toade school was terrible.
rajah was EVIL i tel u.
why she keep picking on sarah??
IT"S EVERYON"ES RESPONSIBLITY TO PICK UP LITTER
NOT ONLY THE MONITRESS!?!?!?...
WAD IS WRONG WITH HER??? DUN ANYHOW SCOLD PPLE LARH
BIASED CAN?
anyway then val sat next to me todae.
yup.crazy gurl!!
bwahbwha todae was ass-y dae larhz.
LAO SHI TOTALLY SUCKS LORZ.
make sarah gen and tanya stand?
FOR 1 hour? WHY!?!??!
WHY rESORT TO SUCH TORTURE?
she is a bloody bitch arhz
miss quek is really tOO NICE liaox
not use to it.
anyway we are all prepared for the exam ??
i think im not.
scared like nuts
but im going to pray.
anyway.like that lorz.bwhabhwahbwa.
madness larhz.
then we went oms
ate noodles with
vonne rah gen jiaying mich.
bwhabhwabwa. LOL
then my dad fetch us back.
anyway AL THE BEST pple!!
LOVE YA LOTS!!!


wed
well..
canot remember much arhz.
but ...
emmm..
let's talk about after school.
went for dental.
xueying was late
and LOST.
alrite let's not argue liaox
bwhahbwabwa
then dentist never say WHEN I CAN TAKE OUT!!!
i wanna cry!!!
anyway,
then we went to take neoz

aiyo buay tahan. JILLIAN SO ACT CUTE CAN?bwhahbwa.

after a HEARTY MEAL OF OLD CHANG KEE.bwhabhwahbwa.

orh...best frenz..bwhabhwahbwa.madness.xueying feeling tall???
bwhahbwhabwa.
then we went to taka
PLANNING TO eat balls.
BUT TAKA FOOD COURT CLOSED.
so never mind
we went back.
anyway then we went for bc.
quite ok larhz
summary skills.
anyway after that we went to BK to grab some nuts
then tok lorz.
crazy gurl.bwahbhwahbwa....

xueying and tanya: stay strong
and be strong.
i love ya babesl!
GOD LOVES U AND AH YUE TOO!
im always here for u
my ears are always open to u.
forever.

photos we took on wed. last wed

me and gen formal...
later we got crappy
and turn out like that

bwahbwhabwa.she nuts larhz
she QUITE light.
=]

then we went to disturb sarah!!
bwahbwha
and took a nice picx
madness trio.
bwhabhwahbwa!!!
gen sarah and me!

pple, all the best in ur EXAMs.have confidence.
and dun be like me.
lack self esteem and confidence!!
GOOD LUCK.
GOD LOVES U!
ALWAYS!

something that sarah ask me to read.
it's really sad.
EVEN I THINK IT"S SAD.
WORTH READING
PLEASE READ

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we
went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with
him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my
love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each
other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there
were so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just
another girl…
“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment
grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’
before.
To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued
till 100 days…200days…
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a
doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…
Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me
the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,
one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him,
and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was
dark… he still didn’t call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me
and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the
house.
Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it
to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had
happen.
Then I shouted…
“Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you
are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb…and I collapsed to the ground. He
didn’t want to say it easily…
How could he….
I felt that…
Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just
crying.
He didn’t call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning
outside my house.
That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on
a street…with another girl…
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed
me…as he touched the doll…
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my
room, and tears fell…
Why did he gave these to me…
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him,
that… it’s going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen
and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t
want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike
other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just
throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then…
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the
doll.
“Jin, move!”
HONK~!!
“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me.
That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to
say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness
and the sadness of losing him…
And after spending two months like a crazy person…
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we
started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to
count the days… when we were in love…
“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty
five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
“I love you~, I love you~”
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
“I….lo..ve…you??”
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~”
It can’t be!
I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop.
I…love you…
Why didn’t I realize that….
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much…
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…
“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each
other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t
say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you
forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you…
everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked
god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last
minute…
For that… and for that reason… to me… it became
courage… to live a beautiful life….