alrite.
obviously todae is sunday
was so worried for my best friend
hope shex alrite larhz
anyway.i took a mrt to church
was writing a letter to xueying on the mrt.
madness.anyway then i met corinne
anothny and aaron was behind her
-evil luff-
anyway then like that lorz.
went to church.
saw u
REJOICE COS IM HALFWAY OVER U
muahaha.i saw u
then i was like.
'yeah wadever'
MUAHAHAHA.GOOD FEELING.
i think
just hope im not confused.
todae i was ESPECIALLY sad.
over the fact that i retain.-cries-
anyway.then ya
after cell,we had worship cum prayer thing.
we started singing.
our CGL will just come up to u if they feel they need prayer.
xueying was having some prob in her life
my cell group leader just came up to her
and she started crying.
GOD works in mighty ways
he does noe that we are depressed.
or we are not feeling good inside.
the Lord is good man.
soon later, mae shann came and pray for me
i didn't say wad is bothering me in my heart.
but she knew.she pray that i'll get over the retain tihng.
and God has a plan for me.
i know that Lord.
please lead me the way u want me to.
all the gurls were crying and crying.
serene corinne sophie felicia xueying and me all stand and cry.
all very stress over exams.
me too.
sigh.
God bless all of us antiochers.
use us Lord to do wonderful things in life.
after that, corinne me and xueying
sat at the apple strrudal shop and eat.
the SHOP OWNER IS SOOOO PRETTY...
see already i drool manz.
she is one hot babe.
-sound so..emmm...-
eat liaox. i went home with xueying.
i could see her walking home while i was standing at the platform
im TRULY worried about this gurl.

xueying, u will always in my prayers.
i noe that this is ur darkest hour.
but im here for u.
no matter wad.
Pray about wad happen alrite.
The Lord is there for u.
always.just open up to him alrite.
love ya gurl.im so worried for u.
take care.

looks like this is it.
im halfway over u.
on the way home i was thinking
and pondering.
wad is it about u that i like.
pple have been asking me.
i've been thinking.
is it fate?NA.can't be.but i duno larhz.
i only know that im halfway over u.
im going to finish the race of 'forgeting u'
i'm half way there.
just pray that i dun suddenly stop
and run back.
i'll still be missing u.
i'll still remember all the times that means so much to me.
good luck for ur o levels.
i can't say it to u personally,
but in my heart.
i wish u..all the best in o levels,prelims and life.
smilez.

in the years to come, will u think about these moments that we shared [ i will....]
in the years to come...are u goin to think it over
and how we lived each dae with no regrets
nothing last forever though we want it to.
the road ahead holds diff dreams for me and u..
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies
and when u need my arms to run into..i'll come for you..nothing will ever change the way i feel

went out with ee
then watch freaky fridae...
VERY VERY SHUAI THE JAKE..
so cute lorz.
gosh.
jillian melts
anyway then after that..
we went to take neoprints.
veyr very nice.
jillian felt weird wearing some weird clothes.
str8 cut jeans
itx been a LONG time since i wore it to town.
usually im in 3 quartz
anyway my ee treat us eat SAKE sushi
nice nice.but VERY full
i told them say one dae i must go there and seat there
and only eat the CAKES.
bwhabhwahbw it looks veyr nice.
ok here are the neo...
one thing for sure
im starting to look like str8.
at least i think so....




bwhabhwahbwa.had lots of fun todae.
oh yes.
mrs lim's husband pass away.
at least that is wad i heard.
poor woman.hope everything is ok for her.
Lord.bless her family
written in the morning
alrite.todae is boring dae.
later going out with aunt.
maybe go and watch freaky fridae.
update more later.
muahahahaha.anyway.yes yes.
my hair is getting on my nerves
i have to resort to gel-ing or waxing
cos ITX LONG..and i can't take it
i look like a SHAGGY DOG..
the price to pay for turning str8.
BUT I WIL NEVER REGRET THIS PATH I TAKE.
muahahahah
i was reading the book
'the diary of a teenage gurl'
my blog layout.
itx very nice
it really motivates the soul.
i feel motivated
i think i shall let God do all the worrying abt my feelings i guess
there is nothing i can do..
God says dun be anxious etc...[taken frm the book]
i guessi should let dwn
cool dwn..

i noe itx fading.
but i can't do anything about it
i guess if it wants to fade.
let it fade.
i ca'nt do anything about it
no matter wad.
i wun turn crook again
that is
for sure

todae aces dae work out is just plain DUMB??
tini was having THE WORLD OF HER OWN.
gong toot can?
then teacherz dae celebration.
this is is kinda dry
but it was HUMOUROUS to see our batch do something.
muahahahah.-feels sad-
anyway.melissa went SIAO when cassandra wanted to sing..
BWHABWHABHWAHBWAH.MADNESS!!! totally madness...
she was like [MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA]..
crazy.nurul was SCARED of her manz.
then cindy did sometihng that i cant put my face up in plmgss.
shan't say.
then after that rite.yesyes.went OMS.
with yum and sarah.
seriously..WHO GOES TO OMS ON A HALF dae?!?!?!
we are suppose to be painting town RED!!
not OMS red!?!?!?!..LAME LORZ.the oms uncle must be thinking
SIAO MANZ these kids.
then we went to see constance.
felt abit sad larhz
and maybe excited about the peanuts
anyway.at least con granny went to heaven k?
dun fret.
anyway then went home.
SLEPT like some shitty poo nanas.
oh yes! on the sbs home,
i was sayying how i wish ah lermz will die.
then when i reach home,
she call and say her husband in hospital
can't have tuition.
i was like
o.O!omg..is it my fault?!?!?!...-slaps mouth-
ah..im a CPF
CURRY PUFF FAN!! bWAHBWHAHBWHBAHBWHABWHAHBWHABHWA
anyway.
i slept iMmediately
till 5plus.
came online
tok to xueying

xueying..although u mite not be able to see this
soon..but i just wanna tell u that im here always
k?no matter wad is happening to u..
i am very very very scared for u..
please dun break dwn..
pray about it..im sure there is a solution..
k? i love u babe.please be strong in watever happenz.
love ya to death.
anything im here.muackz

cyber week is coming.
-_-"most prob have to run to sarahs house and see ppt.
bwahbwahbwahbwa.LAME..anyway yes yes.
all the best peeps for end of year exams
pray i wun retain agn.haiz.
i was reflecting.
i have to live my life with the fact that im one year older than pple.
so damn sick.how i wish life isn't that bad for me.
hope i can promote.
ALTHOUGH rajah hates me.
im SO GOOING TO PROVE TO HER FARKING CHICKEN DOO DA HEAD THAT I CAN DO.
EVEN WITHOUT UR HELP.DUN TRY TO PUT ME DWN U BLOODY FARKER.
THINK UR VOICE VERY NICE AND HIGH LIKE MARIAH CAREY? NO WAY.
U SOUND LIKE a CHICKEN ABOUT TO BE KILLED.
SCRAM U FARK ASS.

im too stressed to do anything about u.
aiya.lazy to think.lazy to feel.
lazy to miss.lazy to love.
i think itx just plain FADING.
THNK GOODNESS.hope it doesn't come back.
i dun wanna live my life loving only u.
itx not EXACTLY worth it i guess.
i doubt im even good enuff for u.
wadever larhz.
im not fit for u

happy burfdae marisa! happy burfdae shirley!happy burfdae xueying'z AHEM!-kekeke-

todae is so not my day.
just recovered.
got back to school.
cindy was very sad.
dun ask me why.
alrite.the dae went ok.
just that i needed to shit
but school toilet the atmosphere not good.
cant shit.
anyway.i DEFINATELY wan to kill rajah.
biased farking bitch
i hate u.BITCH
then after that.
got maths remedial
cindy come and tok to me.
panic mode
she is serious lorz.
im so dead.
but i think shex just playing arhz.
so oh hack.leave the poor gurl alone
my rite ear hurts like bloody boobs.
im so dead.anyway.
BLOODY shit[some pple wil noe why]
yes yes.i tink itx internal.
anyway.life is ok larhz.wad the hack.

wellz,looks like a lot of pple noe.
die lorz.bwhabhwa.but i dun care larhz.
im not going to admit if im not ready to do anything.
yes yes.anyway.i hope that u will just disappear.
but i can't give up yet.
cos if i give up.
xueying wil give herz up.
i dun wan her to give up.
cos herz wil last.
mine won't? so wad diff wil it make.
maybe after the os i';ll think of something larhz
i hope

xueying dun give up yet alrite.
he is WORTH it.
if u give up
i will give up.
so for OUR future.
letx smile and pray for the best
maybe after their o levels.
we MIGHT do someting abt it
or we might leave it eh?
hahaha.gurlz.
we are crazy.glad u did alrite for ur acc.
HAPPY FOR U! anyway.take care.
same to u huiwen.
and cas.
u guys smile and take care

sometimes goodbye though it hurts in ur heart
itx the only way for destiny...
[if it is.im willing to say goodbye.]
sometimes goodbye though it hurts
itx theo only way now for u and me..
THOUGH ITX THE HARDEST THING TO SAY.
i miss ur love in every way.
SO SAY GOOD BYE.
oh dun u cry...
cos
-+[true love.nvr.dies]+-

ok woke up at 930
muahaha.i tel u someting funny
yesterdae while i was bathing.
i saw my stomach being burnt
by the hot water bag
my sister got a shock when i show her..
she call the whole family come and see.
everyone nearly died.
this morning i woke up,
it became a
big BUBBLE!! and it was yellow!!
it was big i tell u
my maid use a needle and burst it..
smart nadia..!future doctor
so now i dun have a lump on my stomach liaox!
my mother came back
and nag nag nag..
nag aobut me not eating rice blah blah blah
aiya..hack abt rice mother.
kekekeke
oh yes...nowi chnage the ting to a scrool bar.
is it better?comments alrite?
yes yes.anyway later going to school to take some books home
return the water bag in case anyone falls ill
can use marhz.then.yes yes.
later need to study like nuts.
exams coming in 7-6 weeks time.
damn damn
all jittery
xueying havin her prelims.
so is cas and huiwen.
all the best folks
thatx about it.
glad i did the scrool bar..
BHB
i did it by myself! thnks to sarah'z guidence
and tips on how to VIEW SOURCE
bwhabhwahbwa

well..yesterdae couldn't type much about my feelings towards u
well...i dunno larhz.
dun care.
i was thinking..why am i doing this to myself
when u dun even noe a fark.
and i wun let u noe.
NV.
cos i will just die.
maybe b4 ns arhz.
sigh

xueying..nice blog!
anyway babe.u mustn' give up
just like u have been telling me
dun give up...
DUN!! we must perserve!!
if one give up,both give up ok
so..best is not to give up alrite darling?
muacks love u

todae i scared practically the whole class during chinese compo
sorry one and all.
thnks vannie constance and maggie and gen and judith and sarah and yum and vonne
for carrying me dwn..i was really on the verge of death
thnks a million...
what happened?
i had a case of gastric flu.
fainted in class.
started off with the old chang kee curry puff [NO MORE FOR ME]
then i got stomache.
theni thot is the need to shit kind
so i kept going to the loo
but turns out that nth came out.
then i felt a VERY SHARP pain
then i just sat on the floor..
then my face was really pale..[acc to pple]
then i broke out in cold sweat..
i could hardly move.
die larhz.then they call my dad.
then vannie con gen maggie judith vonne
carry me dwn..
yes yes
i SO HEAVY they carry me dwn with their hands!??!?
i admire them man.
then my dad came. tired manz.
slept in the car.
doc gave me injections..
i cou;dnt even be bothered to scream.
he LIED to me saying that they wil be no pain after that
RUBBISH now i still need a hot water bag in my stomach
toking about that, i have blisters on my tummy
bwhabhwahbw
now my stomach hurts
got to go.

wanted to write a death note to u..
but i guess no need liaox.
miss u
THNKS LORD FOR PROTECTING ME.
PRAY THAT THE PAIN WILL GO AWAY.
tHNKS

todae is totally shity arhz.
but i receive present frm my juniors in the morning
thnks a lot.it really made my dae
couldn't wait to go home and check it out
muahahaha
anyway i just wanna say something
im not on ANYONE'z side.
im on NURULx side.alrite???
so dun ask me whoz side im on.
NONE.[ilove switzerland]
then after that todae i seat next to gen
silly gurl..dun be sad alrite??
smile i dun wanna see anyone sad.
i demo to tanya how i ran in my skirt
that make me SOOOO MALU
i dunno how to face u man!
gosh!!jeans for life can?..alrite..
then yes todae was ok larhz
went to get present for juniors
yes yes..
im still very very tired.

i still dunno if i have given up
it feels as though i have not?
it feels like infactuation.
im like SO DEAD.
felt like dying yesterdae.
bwhabhwahbwa.just joking.
but i really dunno wad to do larhz.
i wish u only knew lorz.
then at least i could have died in peace.
bwhabhwahbwahbwahbwa.just joking again.
but i hope that somedae somehow
somewhere...
some one will tell u..
though i wish the someone is me..
but i doubt i have the courage to do anything.
forget it..
im still htinking if im over u.
at least now i noe itx not obessessioonnnn...
sigh..
i miss u like crazy
was hoping to bump into u..
but oh wad the hack.
sleep larhz
miss U
forever

sat
oh yes..sat i went for sec four farewell..
yes..yes..oh yes..btw im in my cuzziez house..
and then ...yes
at first felt kinda depressed that
im HALF way leaving?cos everyone is like..
dunno wther to treat me as a senior etc..
then nvm..
had fun with the sec1s..
knew a lil something about them
the only word they said was
'hehehehhehe' yes yes...interesting juniors..
trombone rocks i tell u..
rocks my world
then after that rite..
we ate..then kexin came!!
happy man!! she came SHE CAME!! then after that yes yes
ate with her shimin and cami meiyen and rachel..
then after that went up for the presentation nite..
not bad la this years one..
christabel cried on stage!! me and kexin gave her a
BIG HUG on stage..bwhahbwahbaw..
yes yes..i think she was touched..
kexin gave me a SMALL lil boy..
VERY VERY VERY CUTe..love it to death...
shall upload it somedae..then
huizhen gave me something CUTE!!
love it manz..thnks thnks..
sammie they all cried..
dun cry alrite! anyway..
something malu happened
they called out for the head board mistress...
then i was yakking with kexin..and didn't even noe..
bwhahbwahbwa..i had to announce my next successor..
bwhabhwahbwahb..yes yes..so i did...
then i went home
with smelly bee hooon
bwhabhwhabwhahba...daddy felt sick after smelling it..
i didn't feel a THING after eating it...
wadz wrong with the world

sun
woke up late..
then i rushed to church in my skirt..
-_-" i promise them i would wear it
since they bought it for me..
now im still wearing it..mother dun let me change..
-_-_-_______________-"""""""""'
then after that rite..
MALU MALU MALU i tell u..
TOTALLY MALU...
i was running up larhz..
then u noe..pl gurls run,must lift up skirt kind??
so i did that...and turns out that u were behind!!!?!??!
and i somemore didn't hold the door for u
gosh!!!
shy man ...
then after that..i did ushering..
shock the world as usual..
then after tht corinne shouted..
'aiya..u WEARING SHORTS UNDERNEATH..big deal lorz'
bwhabhwahbhwahbaw....MY SECRET PLAN
xueying was kinda pissed..that i wore shorts underneath..
bwhahbwahbwa...crazy babe...
then after tht todae cell was short..
THNK GOODNESS..
i confirm couldn't seat in there for long!?!??!
my legs were getting all numb and crammy..
bwhahbwhabwa..then after that
i started going crazy
i started telling everyone about the
CHAR SIEW PAO joke [the one bel told me]
gosh!!! eVeryone thot i was nuts..
then we went to cold storage..
then after that we went to cuzziez house to help in
powerpoint presentation...
-_-"bwhahbwahbwa..lame..
then fetch them to art class..
then MY UNCLE wanted to go to town!?!?!?
then i was like TOWN!?!?! IN MY SKIRT?!?!?!??!
lucky it was a short trip..
ah...very very full....
alrite...thatx about it todae..
later need to slog like hell..

i guess it is time to give up..
i guess it is time i should let everything go larhz..
aiyo dun care larhz..
=] i guess there ain't no more feelings liao!?!?!?!
dunno is it no more feelings
or it is just infactuation...
i think it is larhz..
but i see u todae..
i feel like just..normal..
just happy lorz..thatx all.
not as excited as last time
like wanted to keep the straw..
and dunno wad.
now just see u..itx just pure...happy lorz..
normal lorz..
so yes yes..im confused...
anyway..yes yes..maybe
itx time to rejoice..
i think..
do u think my feelings are gone??
comments..
i really dunno...
hope it is...
and i hope itx not too...
I DUNNO!!!! ahhh
still missing u

this song suits my mood
this is for everyone..
including u

say goodbye
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

[chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'll never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, stnding on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

and when u need my arms to run into..i'll come for you..nothing will ever change the way i feel
concluded..:confused
once again

fridae
anyway..fridae was the SAFARI crap.
huiling didn't come
probably scared of the EvIL things
silly gurl arhz.i think she needed to see doc.
suppose to have a briefing at 2 outside library..
then i nv go
but stupid thing happen
i saw A.O on the way dwn
and she reminded me to go for the briefing..
but i DIDN"T GO
[was kinda worried]
okok..then i rush all the way home...
bathe and change..
then went to yum'z house to watch ju-on
WOAH..it was scary can..
actually all scary shows are scary to me alrzh...
watch THE EYE alreadi cannot sleep for few weeks..
bwhabhwahbwa...
lameo
then after that we went to school
sarah and gen were panicking..
vonne very cute le!! make all the silly noises..
anyway horz...
went to school
put on the name tag
went dwn to pick claris up
then after that we played a lil basketball
after that
i scared sarah with the ju-on noises..
bwhahbwahbwhabwa..then after that
the FEATHER duster drop..
then i scared myself..
-_-"bwahbwhabhwa!!!!
lame!!then after that the COLLAR GANG
consist of me con and tanya
we were laming arz...
went oms to buy biscuits..
and eat
saw a particular someone[ahemz LOUDLY]
then msg something..
anyway then we went to school again..
bwhabhwhabwa..tanya went hiding..silly babe..
then tanya and con very cute
the biscuits was in my pocket...
then they were agruin who took it..
then i didn't say anything..
bwhabhwahbhwa..then i own up
kana chased in the car park.
then face painting..tanya help me paint..
she go and paint the word LION
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i started cchassiingg her...bwhabhahbwa.
then the whole nite she thot i angry w her.
thatx sily...why would i do that
reminds me of u noe u noe
anyway..thenlike that larhz.
cindy was scarin me the whole nite
and i think isaac got scared too...bwhabhwahwahbahbwa...
then after that daddy decided to buy my painitng..
bwhahbwabhwa SO EXPENSIVE i rather he give me the 90bucks.
then after that boi² painitng got sold!!
she so sad
she cry and cry!!! pooor boi!!!
dun cry alrite!!! anyway..yes yes...
my dad fetch nurul and sarah and isaac home.

sat
todae i won't be able to blog..
so i better blog my activits todae..
tml i fil u guys in..bhwahbwhabwa..
todae going for sec4 farewell.
sad sad...im goin to be so sad..
anyway..yes yes...kinda sian larhz...

i dunno wad to do..
tml is the TEST..
test of everything..
test of giving up..
test of EVERYTHING larhz..
i duno if im going to fail..
i dunno if im ever going to pass..
but all i noe is that..
all i need is the faith..
to carry on..
i lack the confidence..
i lack the trust...
trust in myself...
trust in u...
if there is anything that i can do to let u noe
i will gladly do so
i dun wanna live in regrets in the future.
sigh..
[life is complicated]
i can give pple advice.
but i can't even help myself.
wad infernal rubbish
im hopeless

song of the dae..thnks to wen
i manage to hear this song.
love ya
this is for u ... haix...
u really impacted my life u bobo

It's early in the morning
soon another day will dawn
I can't wait to feel your arms
around me again

I believe that we could
lay down the world
together we could live
the dream that never ends

Open up the door
just a little more
baby let me in

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart

Everytime I near you
time is standing still
there's nothing you can't fix
with your heavenly smile

I would never leave you
my love is for life
taking things for granted
was never my style

Just give a little love
say you'll never stop
I'll do anything

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
If you'll give me your heart

And I'll do anything
if you give me your heart
ahh ahh yeah
I'll do anything

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go

give a little love
say you'll never stop
and I'll do anything
I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart

ohhhhh ohhhhh

Where ever you go
you are the one
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen,
I'll give you love if you'll give me your heart

i LOVE MICHELE NG HUIWEN.
my sweettiiieee man..
my one and only lorz
thnks for makin the table so touched

having a farking headache
must be
OVER CONFUSED
damn.
im missing u like nuts

alrite world.
wanna thkns HUIWEN and SARAH together
for creating this
thnks thnks babes!
alrite.
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IT IS LABELLED [TOUCHED BY AN ANGEL]
anyway.todae was alrite
it is EAT IN THE CLASSROOM dae
bwhabhwahbwahbwa...i create this dae one.
anyway rite.then ling never come
-_-" then nvm arhz.anyway...
then todae quite alrite
sat next to ah xuan..
cos ling nv come.
she has become a NICE GURL..
really HARDWORKIN.
can see the change in her.
[clapz]
anyway.
todae is really FREAKING DAE
GHOST IN PLMGSS
our classamtes were playing the ghostly things.
the rest of us
were in the loo praying for safety upon our classamtes
really worried for them
thnk GOODNESS the thing went home.
GO HOME LARH.aiyo
maths remedial
came home
wanna sleep.
later going to nap like hell.
-=yawnz=-

todae i not so sad...
not so sad about u..
but now im confused
on whether to let u go..
so currently im still holding on..
till sunday to see if i can let u go
it is confirm in-fact-tu-a-ion..
i think larhz
can't really say it is love or wad not..
but i hardly see u lorz.
hack a doodles.
i dun care.
im so tired to even bother.
i really care about wad to do about u
dunno wad to do sometimes..
sometimes i wanna give up
sometimes i wanna hold on..
if i hold on..wad do i gain..
if i hold on ...wad do i have to offer...
if i give up..i will regret not trying...
[wen and xue said one]i agree.
if i give up..i will nv wanna see u again..
if i give up..i dunno wad itx gonna be like...
i should make a song called if
and itx gonna be about u
so IF u ever see this..
great...
if u ever knew
if u ever saw...
if u ever cared...
if i make a decision...
i hope it would be the rite one.
miss ya badly
can't deny the fact.
i dun care

Huiwen invades

Heee. Hieeee.
I added your comment box and changed ur links colour le.
(Duhx).
Anway, im here to sayy.
Be strong sweetie.
I miss youuu soo much.
Love ya to the bits.
-kiss-
I'll always be behind u.
=)

byeeeeeeeeee.

jillian loves sarah
THE LAYOUT SHE MADE WAS TOTALLY NICE
THNKS SARAH LOVE IT TO DEATH
itx going to be FANTASIC..
LOVE U BABE...
everyone is helping me with my silly blog
bwhahbwhabwa.
THNKS ONE AND ALL.

todae.went for band.
well.couldn't play the piece
sat would be sec4 farewell.
feel sad manz.i suppose to leave one.
but end up retain..then ..sigh..
toking about retain..i feel so
STUPID..SO STUPID
u wish me good luck for my 'prelims'
i was wondering..how to reply u..
when i dun even have any prelims.
u duno.sigh.im not sad that u dunno i retain
in fact i dun wan u to know
i dunno how to face u manz.
im a stupid moron
anyway.then emm..todae nothing much larhz
got scolding for STUPID FARKING LAO SHI
who thinks she damn sud kee...
THINK SHE LOOK LIKE JU XIANG MOTHER SHE VERY SUD IS IT?
CAN SCOLD PPLE FOR GOING TO THE LOO?!?!?
pple have their own PROBLEMS CAN? iwas running away frm here
abhwahbwhabha..
then after that. huiling sarah gen went to watch..
a movie?i didn't go...
IM SO STUPID
the f and n gurls cook damn well.
claps
well...
thnks sarah for helpin me with my layout
thnks wen for the advice.
thnks xueying my ss for the encouragement
thnks sc for the listening ear
thnks HL for everything.
thnks gen for all the corny times
thnks the ones reading my crap

well.looks like itx another dae of confusion
u dunno how bloody FREAKING confused im
whther to give up or not?
cos i tink that i should..cos i see no point in loving u..
no point in just waitn..
but my heart tells me to wait.
i feel that this time my heart is wrong.
TOTALLY wrong.
u tell me then.
wad should i do.
WHY MUST IT BE U???
of all freaking humans..
IT JUST HAD TO BE you
just dun be too nice to me alrite
if i ever accidentally msg u
dun luff.luffing would mk me like u more.
cos i like luffters!ok stupid.but i hope that
i will come out with something to do about u.
iM TOTALLY CONFUSEd.
farked up larhz

this song is for u..
i been crying in my heart for years..
i dunno if u noe this..
but itx dere.dun ask why.
but it is..bootiful song
for the bootiful soul


Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

PRE-CHORUS 1
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

CHORUS
Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

VERSE 2
I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

PRE-CHORUS 2
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

CHORUS
The day you went away
The day you went away

PRE-CHORUS 1
CHORUS

BRIDGE
Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

wen darling.
thnks for u help.
LOVE U MAN..duno wad to do with out u
me use my old layout first.
i save the comment box script here.
anyway.
we edit my other blog first
if successful..then good lor.
but if not i stick to this arhz.
k?love u.
muacks

playing more den words remind me of u
u and only u.
haix
im still thinkin of givin up.
givin up on lovin u.
u will never NEVER know.
so wads the point.
but everytimei wanna move.
my heart tells me not to.
so im TOTALLy confused.
haix.im missin u like anything.

my rite eye keep twitching
for the past 2 daes.why?is there something good goin to happen?
i doubt so.wad can be good.
rite?exactly.
well todae wasn't as bad as i thought i would be.
it was pretty alrite
recieved a sun flower frm my er zi marisa.
thnks babe.love ya to death.
anyway.then went to class.
todae was fine larhz
we beat archer.
bwhabhwahbwa
was venting my anger on the ball
then after that rite.was the referee..
muahahaha
now a daes i really hv no mood to eat.
sigh.oh shit.herre it goes
twitch.anyway.chang's hair is cool.
she having some love prob
poor gurl
noe how she feels.
nurul and me gave her some advice.
tsk tsk.advice from the previous bung and the current.
anyway.wen is helping me with my layout
thnks babe
muakcs

well..
last nite i ask u a qs..
bout the guitar chords.
it was just a bloody excuse larhz.
bwahbwhabwah.just LAME can?
but at least u replied
touched.if u only knew lorz.
but i get really tired.
i duno wad to do.
saw a nice cover
reminds me of u..
guitars
bwhahbwahbwa.anyway.thnks for everything.
miss ya..
always

xueying my gurl..
how are u todae?well..
i was thinking lorz.
and i still duno wad to do..
thnks to u..i feel so much better yest
got my confidence back
i would have like totally give up.
but after toking. i decided to reconsider.
thks gurlz.u must have the courage too k?
i love u..he loves u too!muahx

itx definately the hardest thing to do..
to love someone and pretend u dun..
i've been pretending all my life..
i dunno wad is keepin me frm telling u.
but i know inside my heart i will nv tell u..
NEVER.cos i know nth will come out of tellin u
how i truly and really feel.
this song is for u.
i hope u like it too.
smile.
cos i will nv forget u

the hardest thing

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
(Chorus):
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry

I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you

I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
AND U WILL NEVER KNOW COS
THERE CAN BE NO HAPPY ENDING[haix haix haix]
(Repeat Chorus)

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
(Ooh)

I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
(Repeat Chorus)

I don't want to live a lie What can I do

todae is farking stupid larhz
had menses in the moring
of ALL DAEs..it had to be on MONDAY
well judith and con really scared me todae.
dun be angry pple!
life is bootiful
sometimes
anyway.then had SERIOUS BAD SUPER PMS..
moodswings..mens cram...
blah blah..
was depressed...
the whole dae..
till art time..felt better...
then went mad in the bus..
bwahbwahbwhabwa..sarah got scared.
i think itx obession...
obessession...i mean..is that how u spell it?
o h h a c k...
i dun care larhz..
i wanna die.
im so confused.

why are u ignoring me?
please speak to me..
dun angry..please?
u were there when i needed u..
now im confused..
bwhabhwahbwa..sigh.i just ned u to
respond to me.
thatx all.
haix

gurl arhz..
haix..u and me kinda in the same boat
but seriously..
i dunon wad to do anymore..
cos..me like wait damn long?
i dun wanna wait
wadz the point if i noe
not any oridnary person can accept who i was..
i mean..although it is a WAS..
but..i was once a bung??
cannot lorz..haix..i duno..gurl..thks for ur encouragement all these
years...thnks..i dunno wad to do without u
muacks

im confused.
main topic:
to give up or not to give up
i wan to give up
cos i noe nothing will come out of it
i dun wan to give up
cos of the many years i thot of u..
u and u only
everytime u are there haunting me..
everytime reminding me.
like in the Liu xing hua yuan show..
ni zhi neng xiang dao ta de hao..
ta de mei...dunno if true..
but u are not mei larhz..bwhahbwhabwa..
thatx for sure..[TOTALL] anyway...
u are always there...
reminding me of ur goodness...
the times..
the memories of u..
is something i can't afford to lose
and give up..
totally confused
TOALLY ...TOTALLY BLURED ABT U

knock out
it reminds me of how i feel towards u
and wad half my heart desires

ps.i change the girl to boy,him to her..etc etc..like my boyz i change to my frenz

Boy I’ve been thinking ‘bout
How you have let me down
Fill my head with your lies
Think you getting one by
Checkin her when your with me
Thinkin that I don’t see
Little games that you play
Make me wanna walk away

[B section 1]

You come on over late at night
(You come on over late at night)
Sayin everything is right
But my frenz keep telling me
Take him out, ,take him out
(Take him out)
My frenz keep sweatin me
I’m stressing out, stressing out
I don’t really understand
(I don’t really understand)
What kinda gurl you think I am
How I can be that kinda
How I can be that kinda girl

[Chorus]

Knock out
(You know I wanna out the light, I wanna)
Knock out
(You know I wanna start a fight, I wanna)
Knock out
(You know I wanna do this right)
Cos ya stressin me messin me
I won’t fall so easily
I wanna Knock out
(You know I wanna let it go, I wanna)
Knockout
Do you like you did me before, I wanna
Knock-out
Be the one that’s opening the door
Time for me to say good-bye
Got to get you out my life

[Verse 2]

Every time that you creep
I’m not home fast asleep
Got my spies right in place
They even told me her name
Why you keep frontin when
You know I know the game
I can feel it all around
boy your ‘bout to go down

[B section 2]

You come on over late at night
(You come on over late at night)
Sayin’ everything is right
Yeah yeah
But my frenz keep tellin’ me
Take him out, take him out
(Take him out)
My frenz keep sweatin me
I’m stressin’ out, take her out
(Stressing me out)
I don’t really understand
What kinda girl d’you think I am
How I can be that kinda
How I can be that kinda girl

[Chorus]

Knock out
(You know I wanna out the light, I wanna)
Knock out
(You know I wanna start a fight, I wanna)
Knock out
(You know I wanna do this right)
Cos ya stressin me messin me
I won’t fall so easily
I wanna Knock out
(You know I wanna let it go, I wanna)
Knockout
Do you like you did me before, I wanna
Knock-out
Be the one that’s opening the door
Time for me to say good-bye
Got to get you out my life

Yeah, yeah, yeah

"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear." I John. IV. 18
xueying thnks.this totally makes sense..
love u to death manx
im in school now.
panicking like hell
hope everything will be ok

bhwahbwhabhwa.....thinkin of ya

i realize [+] looks terrible.
but wad can i do?
i still fell for u.
ass..
of all human beings...
it had to be [+]
fine arh.
itx fated
bwhahbhwa. itx going to be a LONG entry..so read on...

everyone.yst was the 1 of the happiest daes of my life.
i realize that both of my happiest daes are on the 16
smilez to death

sat
well. went out with tanya
bwhabhwhabwa.took SILLY neoprints

bwhabhwhabwa.i so act cute can?

bwhahbwa..PPOooOOOotTT....!!! im straight...a SADISTIC one..bwhahbwhabwa....=]=]=]

I LOVE THIS PICX!! I LOOK MUSCULAR EH?bhwahbwhahbwahbhwa..

tanya treat me sakke!! love her to death man
bought the same bottle.
yummy.
thanks babe.love u
then met yuqi cos she got flag dae.
then she brought immelia along.
with some netballers.
tanny lizard duno and dunno..
yes yes.
then after that went to bugis.
ahem
i saw toot.
bwhabhwhabhwhahba
LOL.
then went to kallang.
miaoxuan was on the way.
all the antioch gurls was making fun of me
once again.about the ol elvin thing
lame-o.
i dun even look like hIm can!?!??!?!?!?
grrrhh somemore tanya join in the fun bwhabhwhabhwa
then after that fel and sop left 1st with their frenz to meet shane.
then after that mx came.
we went to take bus.
raj and ahem tk was there.
-_-"""""""""
then after who cares?then after that..
we went to the indoor stadium.
it was huge.
felt very guilty cos i promise leon and amos seats
but when they came,
not enuff seats
sorry!
tanya saw you noe who
shall code it as [+]
bwhahbwhabhwa...
xue say [+] got shuai qi[handsome air].
was luffing my nanas off ...
e other antiochers was like ?_?
bwhabhwhbhwahbwa
but [+] did look very smart that dae
agree? AGREEEeeEEEE..
reminds me of that time pri 6
we all had to do ushering.
[+] was so good lookin..
i mean..for a while
then bwhabhwahbwhabhwa
was really touched by the Lord
and i realized that i had to be a living testimony
to all out there.
i have been thru so much
and the Lord has helped me so much
and even more in the future..
im willing!!!-waves hand-
anyway..was jumping around..
steppin on mx toes
sorry!
but i was very into hillsongs man.
i was touched by an angel
then had chest pain in the middle of the concert
intense jumpin.
then after that.
we all went out the eat lorz
then on the way out
HAPPY MOMENT!!!
alrite..
cos xueying was like
ahem...at the bak at the back..
then i turn
then saw [+]
then i was like O-O!
then after that xueying was like
go tok to him bobo
i was like nonono!!!
never!!!
then she tok first
saying
'hey wadz with the formality'
[+]replied 'oh cos i was at gmss,u noe shenna's school?some bb thing.ya'
then dunno wad happen to me..
then i suddenly punch [+] on the arm and said
'hey really sorry about just now.'
[+]was like 'hey its alrite.it was fun.'

FLY ME TO THE MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!
bwhabhwahbwhahbwhabwa
happy happy HAPPY!!!
then went to MAC ah
saw melissa.
hello.
then after that sarah call me
tok tok tok
tok until the car park
then conference
then after that was telling them abt happy things.
then xueying went to take [+] picx!!
gosh!!! bwhabhwhabwa..
xueying says [+] suspects!!?!?!?!
oh no..
die die die..
HACK ARHZ..
then i tok to sarah outside the clear glass where [+] was
AMP CHIO till red faced
then ya.
went home with xue cor fel in taxi
raining nuts and nanas.
then after that
we went damn poofed
play monopoly until no mood.
so yes.sleep.
zzzzzZZZzZ

sun
went to church w xue cor mei
cor was the last to wake up.
-_-"
bwhahbwhabwa.
then xueying and her ahem wearing couple shirt
bwhahbwhabhwa...
eVIL
[+]was seating in front of me.
smilez like ANYTHING
had cell group
couldn't ans shann qs.
feel so stupid in front of [+]
_-" ...
sad sad sad...bwhabhwahbwah
then took picx!!
yes yes...
SMILEZ i told u itx a happy dae
then after that came home
saw [+]but didn't say bye
nvm.
hack.
bwhabhwahbwhahbwa

im so happy.u made my dae so bootiful
thnks for everything!!!
gosh..
i duno wad to say
but all i noe is that i have 2 more years
to tell u how i feel
bwhabhwahbhwa
=]
i wish for the best for u
and i'll never stop falling in love with u

well.
yesterdae was a happy nite for me.
amp chios
now a few pple noe liaox..
6 pple noe liaox.
decided to open up to pple
later tanya coming to my house to help me choose my clothes!!!
gosh..i need URGENT help can?
bwhabhwahba.
hope todae will go well.
after all..
u are still going to seat with us eh?
happy poo poo now.
bwhahbwahbhwahbwa.....
amp chiox the WHOLE DAE man..
LOL
see how it goes larhz
im trying to forget u
PRAY that i succed k?
cos i want to
REMOVE THAT LONG LOST HAUNTING
bwhabhwahbhwahbwahbwhabhwa...
so now..
i dun hate u liaox
smilez

seriously bored.
why?cos im.
dun ask me why
i just am.

jac dotter.
how come i can't get thru u
speak to me gurl.

it seems its gonna be a test for me
not geog,not lit nor bio
itx a test of LOVE.
probably fail.
i never study.HOW???
panic panic.
bwhabhwahbwa.
-=lame0=
i feel str8
but dun look str8
how?
CHOPS SELF
bwahbwhabwa.
bwhabhwahbwhahbwhabwa
bwhabWAbahbwhabhwahbwhabhwahbwa
i agree with genz blog.
diff.word.
I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U I DETEST U
life would be better without U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U U
wadever.as long i dun see u
i dun wanna look at u
i dun even wanna take a glance at u
cos u make my heart DIE.
U ASSHOLE

shit larhz.
wad is wrong with me man.
damn damn!!!something wrong with blogger
anyway..here im ..
typing again.
FARK.
alrite.
todae is my burfdae.
so wad man
SO WAD MAN
felt so AA[attract attention]
RRAAARRR..
anyway..then todae wasn't a gd dae
it was THE WORSE
lasped into depression.
damn.
on my burfdae.
con yum sarah gen and ling as well as vonne made me happier in the afternoon
thnks guys.
anyway.during lesson
ling didn't wan to tok to me.
why? some probs
but after that alrite liaox
den got bio and geog test
bhwahbwhaba.shitty poo...
bwhabhwahbhwa...then we went to ps
to eat.
planning to pig out tml so i RESIST.
bwahbwhahbwa.so yes yes.
then went to heeren to take PRINCE2

wad is this lorz...angelZ??bwhahbwhabhwabwa

love this to death
bwhabhwahbhwahbwa..
then i bought the EAR RINGS..GUITAR PICK EARINGS.
reminded me of u.
thatx why i bought it.
but now i HATE IT!!!
COS I HATE U...

BUT I LOVE THE EAR RINGS!!!
bwahbhwahbwahhbwa..
yes yes...

COS OF U..
i lasped into DEPRESSION
damn u DAMN U!!
i hope NOT TO SEE U
COS I HATE U
HATE U TO THE CORE
dUN THINK U DAMN COOL OK
I HATE U HATE U!!!
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrr
why i hate u..??
I DUNNO
bUT I JUST DO
IM DAMN ANGRY.
RAr.
EVERYTHING IS ABOUT U..
IM PIGGING OUT ALL THNKS TO U
IM SUFFERING ALL THINK TO U
IM HAVING DAMN MOOD SWINGS COS OF U
IM FEELING AA COS OF U
SEE WAD I MEAN?
EVERYTHING IS ABOUT U
HOPE I DUN SEE U TML
I WILL JUST DIE
COS ..
it will grow.
damn.
im so tired.
after all i cried.
after all i suffered
itx all cos of u
everything i been thru
itx just cos of u.
SELFF FISH U

alrite.
todae is fine dae.
RAINy.love it to death.sleepy!
bwhabhwahbwa.anyway.
this morning tok to neige.
then.
actually todae nothing special.
boring.
saw a guitar
in one class
[thinks hard]
rajah made us stay back
for wad?
just to PRACTICE SQUEEING THE DAMN THING
..lame...
LAME!!!
the only exciting thing is that
we were having EAR discussion.
bwhabhwahbwa.vonne gen was ASKING me to tak out my ear ring.
and change to ear stick
ME SCARED!me dare not.
i swear.
pain le
sat i will just shock everyone in town
with wad im going to wear.
MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHa...MUUUUAAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
tml i 16liaox.
i this year like damn dun give a shit about being
sweet 16
why?dun ask me why..i dUNNO?!
like damn la li lup chap..[read it out loud]
like dun give a damn.but i feel changed.
maybe due to the label change larhz.
feeling sissy.
todae sarah and me were eating at OMS.
then after that MY MOTHER CAME! =x..
how come?then sarah HAD TO BUY HER COMIC!! HOW?!?!?!
then i told mother that sarah had to go heartland.
so THE WHOLE GANG WENT.
bwhabhwahbwa.sarah went to get her comic
i think itx her new love.
gen pierce ear!
support.
then my mothe went to EAT KFC.
sarah had to seat there with us.
felt so guilty
SORRY SARAH!!!! SORRY!!!
alrite.my mother is CRAZY
she was asking me wad kinda guys i like
bwhabhwahbwhabhwahbwa
someone else in mind liao la mother
bWHABHWHABHWAHBWHABA JUST JOKING!
then when she ask me that
a old man walk pass
then she say
THAT KIND ARH?
then i was like ya how u noe?bwhahbwahba
then she said i had a affair with the OMS uncle
she is MAD.
i think sarah thinks e whole YUE CLAN is crazy
i agree.

im piggin out cos of u
im eating everything i see cos of u
im going crazy every min cos of u..
why? due to the fact that u never knew
how i feel
now u wont noe..
next time u wun noe
u will NEVER NOE
i wun let u noe.
cos i noe .it is impossible
all the tears i cried
it is all cos of u..
all the suffering i've been thru
is all bcos of u
im going to eat dinner now
ALL BCOS OF U TOO
bhwahbwhabhwhabhwa..
im crazy
.for u.

shit larhz.
im getting fatter.
VERY MUCH FATTER
i must start excersising...
damn DAMN!!!
bwhabhwahbwhabwa...

[bernice take care alrite.]
[cindy is coming back tml]
[tml is yuex burfdae]
[life is sucky]
[KNEW IT ALL ALONG]
bwhabhwhabhwahbhwabwa....
KNOCK OUT

todae was ANTI art dae.
seriously.
bwhabhwahbwahbwa.my MOUTH looks distorted.
how?why?dunno.
over the radio i heard that the comp XP and dunno wad is got virus
i wrote for my partner the lyrics for i promise by stacie orrico
was thinking
then silly doo doo partner went home half way.
cos she got food poisoning..
later she go meet her dearie
fine larh.leave me in school with ol para and shitty TBK.
bwhabhwahbwa.todae o level results come out liao
shitty pooo!!i feel so sad cos i never take this year.
anyway SO HAPPY FOR KEXIN!! and the rest!!!
kexin got a1..happy for yandao cum chiobu..
bwhahbwhabwa...gave her a shock outside the hall.
went to heartland mall
eat bk
then they were toking about the comps and the virus
saying only XP and etc etc..
then when u go online
will say must shut dwn in 1min time and dunno wad
no wonder u came and left twice
with con and jay chou look alike.
she REALLY LOOK LIKE JAY CHOU man.
yummy yum..bwhabhwhabwa...
gen go and meet her other half.
huiling also.
they double date i think.
WITHOUT their good frenz
bwhabhwahbwa..FINE!bwhahbwhabwa..
mai yu de.[sell fish] bwhabhwahbwa...ok nvm..
me siao liaox.
sarah and gen noe who it is liao
-shy-
face all red

to those who didn't do that well,
dun worry.i can be retake..it means u guys have another chance.
u guys have the chance.dun lose it .
cos i wasn't given another chance.to promote.
study hard!i support u guys forever

im blasting the radio like crazy now.
hoope the neighbours dun complain.
i think jac didn't do that well.
dun worry dotter.daddy is here.

well..
my frenz noe liaox..
die larhz.
but one thing that is happening to me now is that
im not thinking so much abbout u
all thnks to sarah!!thnk u sarah..
bwhabhwahbwa EDISON!
alrite..then ya lorz.but there are times i still think.
think think and ponder bout life.
bwhabhwahbwa..might be able to catch a glimpse of u
-muahahahhahaha-beware.
well.i dunno wad to say
but i miss ya!bwhahbwhabwa...ok.
sarah ask me why
i really dunno. but u are SERIOUSLY haunting me.
haunting
well.i hoopee u will disappear.
after so long i fell...
i wan u to disappear
frm my heart.
itx very pain to love someone
u can't love
but i dare to.
cos i dare to love
and dare to risk.[maybe not to risk it yet]
in me i noe itx impossible..
but i'll just love u till i can't anymore..
then i can celebrate
the end of the haunting of u
MUahahahhaha...
SCram man..
im PIGGIN out all thnks to u..
i pig out when im
VERY SUPER CHAO EXTREMELY
fustrated.sad.depressed.or confused.
you are making me have all these symptoms of madness.
now got the JUSTIN timberlake song.
nice.ok out of point.
[some people are destined.and thatx wad it is]--> part of the song.
i TOTALLY AGREE

alrite alrite pple..
pissed off man.
i had to take AH LERMS for like2hours
-_-" dies.
bwhabhwahbwa...anyway..
very angry just now..
was gorging on food..
my sister thot got hungry ghost posses me..
all ur fault make me so sad..
sad till i have to go to my last resort
gorging of food.
i was damn sad..
and angry..
over nothing?bwhahbwahbwa..
so i ate like a pig...haixx..
feeling so gulity..
so yeahz.
so sorry.
sorry

u are my dotter
why shouldn't i give a damn about u?
if u are being bullied anyone will rescue u
needless say me..
i will rescue u..!!and save u!!
im here when u need me
itx just whether u wan me to hear u..
k? dun be silly...
smile i dun wanna see u so sad...
SAd over nothing?? k? smile...
love daddy.

alrite.
i have a confessionto make.
i tell u.
never tell lies.
lies may lead to a whole mess of things in the future
im in the LIE web now.
bcos of a LIE i said in sec2.
i can't tell my frenz who [you] are.
during sec2,
i make it as though someone like someone.
making the person have a name in class.
i confess it was one way to expres my feelings for [you].
my poor fren had to live with that lie i made up.
everyone was making fun of her and the person.
im sorry
i realize it is a stupid mistake.
im sorry.
i think now sarah and gen noe who it is liaox.
ya.
im so sorry...
thatx why i couldn't say out [your] name..
i haev been reflecting on my life.
it really sucks.
i have been peer pressured.
making me go to the wrong path of life.
now im going to make it rite.
ALL rite. go the rite path..dun regret.
my advice:dun be peer pressured and live a life that is not the real u.
deep rite dwn in my heart [you] were there.
just that i thot maybe it will go aaway
it was on and off..
non stop hits..ya...silly me..
thinking it will go away
till now..itx stil HAUNTING me.
im very regretful of my life.
im going to be 16in like..3daes n i dun give a fark.
cos i noe that i never live life the fullest for the past life.
i had happy times..
i had sad..
some of the times were just fake...
i was just CRAVING for attention.
now im saying wad my heart really feels.
so yeah...i guess thatx about it.
para piss me off with the sin and cosine rule
aiya.dunno larhz.LAO SHI another one.
pissing me off..
do wad YU WEN LIAN SI?
alamak.sleep man.
zuo wen ban was boring.
it very hard for me to go the rite path now
but im trying my very best
just to be who i really am
thnks for all the encouragement
to those who gave me.
i needed it.cos i would never had the courage to move on
and be the real me.
so yes.
todae is a official changing point.
im changed.NEW jillian.
beware..
bwhabhwahbwhahbwahbwa
la li da da...

looks like this is it man
bwahbhwahbwa..
i feel like giving up everything
all the times i liked u..
all the times i missed u.
forget it..
i dunno wad to do..
everytimei forget u..
u will come back and haunt me
now u sound like a ghost...bwhabhwhabhwahbwha
yes..
go away...
i hate u
but i love u..
bwhahbwhabhwahbhwahbwhahbwhabhwahbwhabhwa

somehting wrong will the village photos manz...

alrite..later going out with sarah they all
to celebrate rah and my burfdae..
this year my burfdae sucks...

yesterdae nite got scolding frm dad..
say i play hp a lot..
watch tv so much
dwnload so many things...
buy too much CDS
hello? we are teenagers..
LET ME HIP AWHILE LARHZ
dun expect me when im 40years old
then come and hip meh?
bwhabhwahbhwahbhwahbwa
alrite not making sense..
HAPPY FOR U HUILING..
bwhabhwahbahba
yes yes...
hope sarah they all can cheer me up
later still maybe have to go fetch silly ol sister...
maybe have to pass jac panadol..
she is a silly gurl..
house dun have panadol..
as her daddy i should pass her some...
so yes yes i will..
later...
haix...
SERIOUS CASE OF MOOD SWING
very happy then sad one..
i sense PMS coming..
die

once again..
i thot my feelings were fading RAPiDLY FOR U..
then till sunday came again...
then
last nite..
the only person on my mind was u
i can't take it..why must it be U...??
the music u make..
is ringing in my ear...
i talked to jie about u..
jie jie ask me to tell u...
i can't..
sarah and gen still guessin about u??
bwhahbwhabwa...
haix
I CAN NEVER
cos..i noe i will be rejected...
i keep thinking..
wadz the point of loving u..
when there will be no future ahead for us
after so many years..
after so many sufferings..
it is still about u...
my feelings was always ON AND OFF ON AND OFF...
haix...i was reading my diary...
i always write the same ol thing...
that is [HOW I WISH U ONLY KNEW]
till now..
im still like that...
forget it..
i stand no chance...
just...
haix...
let me luv u in silence..

alrite...
now using same zao...
notepad...
bwhahbwhahbwah...
anyway..
sundayz report...went to church...
with my FAV u2 jeans...bwhahbwhabwa...
shock the world bynot wearing my hairband..
looked like a shaggy dog..
bwhabhwahbwa..thenz.after that...
todae is worship..how u say...
intetense worship
it was GREAT...
cos uwere there...
bwhabhwahbhwa...anwyway...then after that....
pastor joel came up to have his speech..
he is LAME
then after that
went dwn to celebrate wthe AUGUST babies burfae...
only gurl there cos SHENNA ran away...
then cos i nOWE xueying a favour...
cos she wanted me to bring her cam to church and tak picx of..
AHEM and antioch..
but me and caz were lazy...
so i decided to use my own cam...
and TRY to take picx...
and so i used mei mei cam..
and also mine to take her AHEM..
yes yes..had a HARD time secretly taking...
serene and felicia helped..
bwhabhwahbwa..
then went to tm...
to buy lots of things...
meix bag...my jeans....CD...ear stick...
etc etc...
then came home..
do art..
slept..
now having a headache...

...shit...
e feelings for u faded...
but now itx coming back to me..
im doomed...
wad am i going to do...
i dun wan it to grow..
cos i noe ithat it wouldn't never be shown...
wadz the point of loving u...
awith the fact that u dunno...
a guitar pick always remind me of u
sigh..
how i wish u only knew...
im doomed...
i dun wan IT TO GROW...
ass ass ass.....
bloody ass...
i can't do anything to stop it..
everything reminds me of u..
let me die
just DIE..

my dad is in the room now..so ya...typing on notepad...

anyway...yes yes...watch nine girls and a ghost...damn nice can..
i cry and cry and cry and CRRRY
cos it was really really really really sad.....
edison is so CUTE in that show..
MOST HANDSOME ghost in the show...
my sister was crying too..
MY SISTER CRYING IN A SSSHHOOOOWWWWW..
this shows that u HAVE TO WATCH IT..
it is like the BEST sHOW EVER...
im looking for picx in that show...
I FOUND SOME PICTURES FROM THE SHOW

THE COOKIES...they are DAMN FUNNY!

edison looking shock...SHOCKING GOOD...omg..kaka and him...

sneaking around...OMG..edison...

EVERYONE...THIS IS tHE SAD SAD SAD SAD PART
i really cry my HEART OUT DURING THIS SCENE...
OMG OMG OMG...SO SAD...
thinking about it MAKE ME SO SAD!!!
SAAAAAADDD!!!!!!
alrite..move on

it is really great lorz....omg omg...anyway
the whole dae i wil be having tuition
cellebrating nATIONAL DAE..
happy burfdae to SINGAPORE AND SARAH!!!
bwhabhwahhwahbwhabwa..
yes yes

so i'll be very busy the whole dae..
now concentrating on art...
damn..
alrite..
got to go...

sarah...
hey gurl..
itx ur burfade!!!
happy burfdae sarah...
thnks for all the encouragement u have been givin...
really
appreciated it...
and thnks for all the
jokes and luffter in
bus 53...
i think we are begining to scare all the 53 uncles and aunties,...
always luffing for no rhyme or reason......
thnks alot sarah!!
love u!!!

bwhabhwhabwa....go check out the fun fair PICX!!itx OUT@!
todae was the fUNFAIR!!!
gosh...
letx start the dae...
bwhahbwhabhwabhwa
6.30:i reach school...
6.32:run to give michelle her socks...[muahahaha]
talking to shirley...bwhabhwahbwa
she wanted to stay at my house...
can't larhz...
6.45:ran up to put bag...and take table...but end up i took my bag down..
7am:doing stall stuff
7.15am:went to TRACK for ndp
7-9am:was ENTHU for ndp with constance and tanya and jasmine...val and vonne and limin and..maggie...bwhabhwha
madness manz...yum was so embarassed by us! but who cares! we were like
[CHAN MALI CHAN!!! =HOOOOI HOOOOI=] so many times...KUMAR was like -_-" bwhahbwhabwa...
WE ENTHU U GOT PROBLEM WITH US ARHZ?
9am-6pm:bwahbhwahbwa...alrite...BIG TIME...
me and vonne went to change..
i wore a BLACK AND WHITE SHIRT that look TOTALLY COW?? with the COW TIE of cos..
vonne wore my sisterx JERS...[pretty gurl]
anyway...then EVERYONE WAS STARING AT ME..
so malu...i was shouting like crazy!!! bwahbwhahbwhabwa..
=[mOooooOOOoo]=bwhahbwhabwa..me and CON LOUD SPEAKER !!
then...emmm..can't really rem...bwhahbwhabhwa...
met up with lots of ppple larhz..
like LOKE..PEIMUN..neige!!bwhabhwhabwa...
yes yes...
bwhabhwahbhwa..then after that
i was quite pissed..
bwhahbwhabwa..
oh yes i saw JAC my dotter and her er zi...
bwhabhwahbwa..her er zi is mad larhz...
anyway yes yes...jac is nice gurl..
then after that...wad arhz..
the cow was great!
tanya had a HELL OF A TIME bwhahbwahbwa..
she was encouraging kids...=] nice tanya...
then after that i TRIED to encourage kids...[yes yes] impossible??but i DID TRY!
then after that i was VERY VERY VERY HOT...
cos i was wearing HOUSE TEE SHIRT OVER WITH TIE...AND MALTING BOARD ...
madness...with a hat too..
so me and NURUL[my cow boy was with me]yes yes..
4c2 SMOOTIE was great...
made a dedication that was read..
but the song was SPOILED..
then me and tanya go and complain...change to ADDICTED MY SIMPLE PLAN!!
mr tang got DUNKED!bwhabhwahbwa..my CHIN AND KAUR...
they were SO HAPPY!
then after that rite...we got $1777 !!
not bad le...bwhabhwahbwa..
RAJAH SUCKS LARHZ HOR??the bball net spoil liao..
STOP COMPLAINING!!make jasmine so sad...
oh yes me and con are PERMERNANT ADVERTISING PpLE!bwhabhwahbwa..
advertise eveRything we saw at 5.15bwhabhwahbwa..
yes yes...saw lots of bungs and passive..
Saw the ROBBIE AND THE BOOK OF TALES gurl..
bwhabhwahbwa..ok..
SAW mOooOOLEY!! was LUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG my
NNNNAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSs off!!!bwhahbwhabhwhabwa.....
=]bwahbwahbhwahbwa....
6.00went to go and count money
6.30had SERIOUS CHEST PAIN...aND THROAT PAIN...
was on FAINT MODE...judith was there to take care of me thanks judith..
u needed that pat...bwhabhwahbwa..glad i was of some comfort
then went to toilet and change..coul;dnt take it..
bwahbhwahbwahbhwa...then THNKS to con..she save my life so i treat her MAC
then we went to mac[ying con sarah me]
MELIssa lost her fone..poor gurl...
then we went mac and eat...
WAS CRAZY LARHz...ALL SORT OF MOVES HAPPENED!!!
bwhabhwahbwa..
bought BLACK NAIL POLISH.......
coool?
anyway...SAW FEN NI!!
bwhabhwahbwa
CHIOBU CAN? ...aiyo...she was with a GUY
must be boyfren but dun wanna sae..
BWHABHWAHBAHBHABwa...
then went home with yum and sarah
bwhahbwhabhwa..
came home..
now very tired and aLL RED...
sun burn...
bwhahbwahbhwa...
FUN FAIR WAS FUN

hey hey..gurl...piss is one thing
now i dunno how to help u liao?!?!
cos i dunno how to defend u!?!?!..
pple see wad they see..
i can't CHANGE THEIR IMPRESSION of u..!??!
my advice:stay clear ...
dun go too close lorz..
thatx all i can say...cos..that would help larhz...
it wouldn't let otherz tok bad about u!?
i dun like it wen others tok bad about u
and i dunno how to help u!?!?!
dunno how to defend u~!?!?~!
so yarhz...i dunno larhz gurl..up to u to listen
but take care

Pharrell:
Ladies and gentlemen
It's my pleasure to introduce to you
He's a friend of mine

Justin:
Yes, yes I am

Pharrell:
And he goes by the name...
Justin
Wowoowoooo

All the way
from Memphis, Tennessee
And he's got somethin' special for y'all tonight
He's gonna sing a song for y'all
About this girl

Justin:
Come in right here?

Pharrell:
Yea, come on

On that sunny day
Didn't know I'd meet
Such a beautiful girl
Walking down the street
Seen those bright brown eyes
With tears coming down
She deserves a crown
But where is it now
Mamma listen

Senorita, I feel for you
You deal with things, that you don't have to
He doesn't love ya, I can tell by his charm
But you could feel this real love
If you just lay in my...

Running fast in my mind
Girl won't you slow it down
If we carry on this way
This thing might leave the ground
How would you like to fly?
Does summer queen you right?
But you still deserve a crown
Well hasn't it been found?
Mamma listen

Senorita, I feel for you
(Feel for you)
You deal with things, that you don't have to
(No, no)
He doesn't love ya, I can tell by his charm
(He don't love ya baby)
But you could feel this real love
(Feel it)
If you just lay in my...

Ah, ah, arms...
(Won't you lay in my)
Ah, ah, arms...
(Mama lay in my)
Ah, ah, arms...
(Baby won't you lay in my)
Ah, ah, arms...

When I look into your eyes
I see something that money can't buy
And I know if you give us a try
I'll work hard for you girl

And no longer will you ever have to cry

Senorita, I feel for you
You deal with things, that you don't have to
(Deal with things you don't have to)
He doesn't love ya, I can tell by his charm
(No, no)
But you could feel this real love
(Feel it)
If you just lay in my...

Ah, ah, arms...
(Whoa)
Ah, ah, arms...
(My baby)
Ah, ah, arms...
(Oooh, yea)
Ah, ah, arms...

When I look into your eyes
I see something that money can't buy
And I know if you give us a try
I'll work hard for you girl
You won't ever cry

Now listen
I wanna try some right now
See they don't do this anymore
I'ma sing something
And I want the guys to sing with me
They go
"It feels like something's heating up, can I leave with you?"
And then the ladies go
"I don't know what I'm thinking bout, really leaving with you"

Guys sing
It feels like something's heating up, can I leave with you?
And ladies
I don't know what I'm thinking bout, really leaving with you
Feels good don't it, come on
It feels like something's heating up, can I leave with you?
Yea, ladies
I don't know what I'm thinking bout, really leaving with you
Show the good to me

Sing it one more time
It feels like something's heating up, can I leave with you?
Ladies
I don't know what I'm thinking bout, really leaving with you
Yea, yea..
It feels like something's heating up, can I leave with you?
Ladies
I don't know what I'm thinking bout, really leaving with you

Gentlemen, good night
Ladies, good morning
(laughs)
That's it

thurs
todae is PREPARATION FOR funfair.
was fun and exciting..
was crackin my nuts and brains out
to figure out
how to put the basketball net up..
with out wriggling
bwhabhwhabwa..
and thank GOD
he gave me the idea
of stacking the chairs and tables..
bwhabhwabhwa..
now it works..
PROUD
hey..if u need tix.
tell me..
i have.
-winks-
anyway..today was a VEXIN day..
cos i,the treasurer...
had to collect class fund
and i had lots of accounting to do..
make it sound so chim
IT IS WAD!
thenz ya lorz...
haix...
sad dae...
pple thot i accuse them..
i never..!!!
=silence in the house=
anyway..life goes on..
letx pray that the FUNFAIR will be fun..
and my burfdae would be ..
acceptablethis year

did u noe my bdae is coming?
bet u dun..
sigh...
but i always knew abt ur bdae..
and send u msg...
during ur bdae...
oh wad the hack
im losing faith in u..
losing confidence in myself..
losing my self esteem..
am i losing u too?
maybe..
i hope not
cos i miss u so...

-_-

-_-"

-_-"[23]

u dun noe wad u mean to me
no matter wad i do..
all i think about is u..
even wen u move my ___
u noe im crazy for u[bud u dun]
and i love u
and i need u
i love u
boy itx for sure

now..this is ROMANTIC..

YANDAO..i INSIST!! YANDAO...cUTE!! SHUAI GUY I TELL U


he looks GREAT HERE!!!

baby baby baby can't stop think about u lately
im going crazy crazy crazy about thinking of u baby
baby baby baby thinking about u lately...
im going crazy crazy crazy just to hold u baby
im just going crazy thinking of seeing u again..
if i cld see u again..
i am going crazy

maybe u have been crying just like me
i wonder..

maybe wanted to be love too much
too serious too soon
i wanted u to love me
it been a raining afternoon[REALLY!]
we got too serious too soon..

todae i went to school
fark man
throat isn't feeling that good.
damn assy
anyway.
just went to school to give the class the banner
hope they are doing fine
hey hey
tcs is actually going to our school todae
hahaha
the kids central guy mite be there.
[xueying u should noe wad im tokin bout-=joel look alike=-bwhahbwa]
interesting.
bwhahbwhabwa
in the morning took some picx of my close chumps
with my phone.
cheeky
kekeke

sarah...gen and huiling

voone and huiling..bwhabhwa..chiobuz

me and gen..bwhabhwahbwa...stp

gen and limin guarding the toilet door

me and tanya..hiding in one cubicle..bwhabhwahbwa

me and my jiefu..limin!bwhabhwhabwa...duan chen feng
alrite with the picx
then after that during assembly
silent reading was a failure.
NO ONE WAS READING!
sarah and gen were
discussing on
whether it was a
guy or gurl
bwhabhwa..
itx for me to noe and for u to find out.
=]then cme zalena..
dunno wher she run to
then PE.
dodsworth!!we must win ok!
next week im goin to play
yipppeee..
the bball craze is kinda dead isn't it?
bwhahbwhabhwa...
then came home
did art
and watch twins effect
GOSH.EDISON IS LIKE THE SHUAIEST GUY IN THE WORLD..
his english is like...
HMMmmmppPPHhh man!
bwhabhwahbwa...
turns the world on..
i tink helen is cute
bwhahbwahwha =]
EKIN DIED! gosh..so saddening!!!...
the gypsy was so sad...
had to kill her own boyfren!?husband?dunno larhz
but she half half..
half human half vampx
..that means she have HALF LONG TEETH?
HALF BLUE EYES?
cool...i like...

hahaha...
everyone is guessing about u
haix...only i noe...
no one else noes...
but the dae u noe
is the dae i will cry..
cos i dun wan u to noe
i just wan things to remain the way it is
silent..
it is not as though u will do anything about it
thinking abt the way u encouraged me for the syf
i made a smart mistakewas touched.
thnks.i'll be missin u
always

You are Snow White... Innocent and pure, you trust
almost everyone. But due to a few of your
redeeming qualities, many are jealous of you,
but you go lolling through life without a clue.
Wake Up! Not everyone is trustworthy. However,
you are a favorite of those who know you well.


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.:What's Your Drug of Choice?:. (with pictures)
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you are a trip to a big city! You love to be busy,
but you also like life to be full of adventure
and suprises. You love people and culture.
Go to New York and sleep in the metropolitan
museum.


(with pics)what vacation are you?
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Ur more suttle in ur hair style. U might like to be
curly or have hair with volume.


Witch Hair style would you have.
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i shall keep like that..bwhahbwahbwa..

just ears...BORING...while the industrial is
awesome and different it can be the first step
to new piercings!


Which piercing suits you?
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bwhabhwhbwa..of cosl arhz..i dare not pierce one lorz

this is my mei mei..picx of the dae..
anyway..
todae was alrite
went to spot lite with sarah and mei
had a hell of a time
went to bk and eat
bwhabhwahbwa
praying hard for just a glance of u
anyway.
then todae in school nothing much larh
as usual
tml i on mc
so i go sch
to pass the class the banner things
then i run home liaox.
throat infection
die mode.
so yes.

to jac my dotter
must rest well k
daddy is here for u..
no matter wad

and to the rest of my 'relatives' take good care of urselfs...
the COUGH VIRUS is spreading..
im the source..
ke ke ke ke
ha ha ha HAHAHAHAHHA

everything is about u..
u and u only u..
everytime i think of u
u and only u..
haix..
but do u noe?
NO u dun...
how?
HACK..just leave it alone..
and let me love u
in silence

i miss u ..
miss you...
nothing more but
just missing u..
thinking of u..
loving u..
the last thing on my mind is u
the 1st thing on my mind is also u..
why everything is about u?
why are u so selfish..
making me think of u and only u..
YOU..u..U!!!!
grrrhh..
nothing to say.
i have lost control.
my heart tells me that [passives are for me]
but my mind tell me that [str8 is the path to be free]
how?
aiya
why not i just die
i miss u so much..
SO SO SO MUCH
but do u noe that?
NO..u die also wun noe..
and i dun have the courage to let u noe

sat
on sat.
iwoke up at 9.
went for band.
not playing for ndp
rejoice
according to the rest of the sec4
the band is HORRIBLE now.
emm..that i dunnoo
all i noe is that my juniors are
DAMN SCARED OF ME
why?i dunno
maybe i got words
[i WILL EAT U]
on my forehead..
after that went home.
mother took us to bugis to buy clothes.
HA! u will nv NV NV nv guess wad i bought
i bought a skirt,jeans,and a shirt.
love the jeans to death!
bwhabhwahbwa..
then took ah neoz..



sundae
woke up.[duh]
went to sanctuary
with fel xueying.
then couldn't find _
xueying couldn't find _ too
bwahbhwa..
we were searching like nuts
after that me and mei went to roam around changi airport
madness?
yes indeed.
we went to check out uncle joe's club
THE TOILET IS BOOTIFUL.
singapore's BEST TOILET
guiness record somemore.
DAMN NICE
i can stay there
anyway
then came back
my throat hurt like nuts
i swallow saliva like swallow acid
damn pain
im not KUA-ZHANGING
so ya
tml got idpw.
fark.
letx all panic and die.

i miss u..
where were u?
i couldn't find u..
now my feeling for u grew..
shit
i really wan u to noe
how i feel for u...

this is my cel group...
we are called
ANTIOCH
so crazy like that..
uh oh uh oh uh oh..bwhabhha...
we are all born in the year of 1987..
see any yandaos?
-=blehz=-
go and check out
under the snaps colummn
the link iscalled ANTIOCHERZ
go and check out the rest too..bwhabhwahbwa...

everytime when im feeling low
i wish u would come to me
and comfort me slow...
that is if i have e courage to tell u how i feel

well todae was alrite.
now seldom chest pain.
i knew it.
huang and liang medical services are great.
im cured.
but now i have a sharp pain on the left side of my throat.
why why why?
anyway todae was alrite arhz..
just came back frm rah'z house
went with con and ying
i tel u..
4 of us go out hor..
ok suppose to go rah house
den we end up at heartland
then i was like.
why are we at heartland?
then con say sarah ask
then sarah say con say go heartland
ying and me just 'huh?'
oh anyway we end dining at yoshi
crap
then after that go rah house.
came back liaox

pictures of u in my mind..
memories of u in my heart
all the words u said
all the dreams i had
were just perfect
bcos in those dreams
the world belonged to u and me.
saying i love u
will be hard
saying i dun miss u
it means i bluff
wad am i suppose to do
when im in love with u